[ w/o music, life would be a mistake ]

2009-08-15T01:15:00.004+08:00

females are such weird creatures.
we always dont do wat we say,
we always dont mean wat we say.
and when we are actually doing wat we said, and mean wat we said,
we tend to back out, change our mind, hesitate.
and starts to wonder, whether if the decision is correct or not.
whether if we will live to regret in the future or not.

contradicting eh?

i find it absurd too.
and i cant stand it myself.
i hate my hesitation.
i hate my swaying thoughts.
i hate my indecisiveness.
and i hate myself for being so easily psycho-ed.
becoz for one thing - im afraid of making the wrong move.

thats my extremely weak point. n probably my hard-to-change personality. for i belongs to the group of pp who seeks perfection and allows no mistakes. when there's mistakes seen, i tend to back out. i tend to lose confidence. i tend to be disappointed and gave up easily.

i've been ranting n ranting all these whiles, bout seeking a better iron-rice-bowl. but yet now when i'm really in the real situation, having the need to type in my last letter to the current iron-rice-bowl.. i felt like crying. tots of wonderful moments to the most disgusting irritable memories came flooding into my mind. i tot, i will so gonna miss all these times. i might even miss the complaints and naggings from the customers of my iron-rice-bowl. i will miss the pp sharing the same iron-rice-bowl as me. i will miss the place my iron-rice-bowl is in. i will also miss the 'playing' and working time with the pp who always hang stethoscopes around their neck, and at the end of the day, we definitely felt satisfied and happy for what we did to help our customers. Afterall, leaving a place where i belonged to for the past 2.5years was not an easy good-bye.

a part of me felt like backing out. but yet a part of me sees a better light ahead. tats life. always causing you to be in a dilemna. always requiring you to make a decision. n i supposed my friends will all think im out of my mind. to stay on, i'll rant. to move on, i'll also rant. so wats wrong wif me? i seriously don't know. i'm always never happy with all the things. and it is only this year tat i noticed i got worse. think i'm suffering from some 22 year old kind of disease. getting emo over, trivial matters. (chey,)

well, dont have to bother about me. i'm just pouring out my thoughts. talking to friends bout these i guess they will only feel like slapping me. (hah.)

i supposed, i'll still choose the better light ahead. all i need is just someone to push me on if i ever turn my head to look behind.

2009-08-02T02:13:00.005+08:00

smth nice to share. i like this music alot. =)

Inochi No Namae

2009-07-22T00:26:00.002+08:00

someone pls tell me how to deal with her. everyday see her makes my blood boil. i really feel like slapping her la.

i cant believe that someone can actually be so scheming la. she's juz too much la. she knows every wed nobody wans to do SQ's echo. she jolly well knows wed aftnoon noones will be delighted to accept this challenging tough job to handle 3 SQ cases. BUT all along SQ got her so called 'fav' techs that she prefer. so isnt it right to say that, she can juz put the 'fav' pp up to do SQ's cases to make EVERYONE'S LIFE better and easier? she's juz butt itchy, out to make lives difficult for everyone. she juz wan to make pp hate her la. i really donno wat her brain is made up of la. no EQ. no boss's material. no care for the employees.

fuk la. i really cant stand her. she's getting too overboard. she has instructed the 'fav' grp of pp NOT TO SWOP duties wif us for SQ sessions. these pp are so afraid of her, tat as long as she nv gifs green light, nobody is supposed to change wif us. bloody fuk. cst tried her luck last wk, failed. i tot i hav a lil bit of luck, so i tried this wk n i failed too. its like i havent been doing SQ's sessions for since when i started echo? or i shld say i have nv done her sessions at all other than once being sabo-ed by her. i can still rmb very clearly she juz told me to 'hao zi wei zi' when i first did SQ echo. its like, wtf la? u nv put pp to train me for SQ and u threw me to die, n u still got the cheek to tell me hao zi wei zi. this matter i don pursue liao since it happened so long ago. n now she put me to do SQ again! bloody fuk la. im really pissed la, serious. i donno y on earth such person exist. she's so fake.

i can confirm guarantee chop tml SQ sure shoot me one. no matter how nice my echo images can be, no matter how hard i tried to beautify the images, i sure kena bombed. n i will die terribly. those nv work wif her wouldnt know. but she's tat horrible. she's 10000000times worse than dzp. we call her 'empress dowager', so u can imagine how reputable she is, n how much her words weigh. if she's bad mood tml, i tell u.. good game to me.

haiz i donno if i can take it tml. i really really really feel very stressed doing her echo. she can scold u until like u're total useless dumb person n u're not fit to do echo at all. she can dampened ur confidence so much that u don hav the courage to do the next echo case. if i really cry tml, i wont continue the next echo case liao. i will go awol.

be like this again, i will hand in my letter. its not like other places don wan me n this place is not the only place that needs techs.

trust me. i hate this dreadful place. i hate the corked up management. i hate it!

2009-07-19T00:30:00.002+08:00

just got a red bomb news frm pr saying one of my friend's bf proposed to her.

few wks ago, saw aml's ROM photos too.

wow suddenly i realised, we are all falling into the age of marriage liao. friends one by one getting married and we will get more of these wedding invitations coming.

so fast huh. time doesnt wait for anyone. it's like memories from the good young days were still fresh in my mind. main topic in everyone's mindset is not marriage yet. its still study study study, mug mug mug. but yet now the major hot topic amongst our era of pp is to settle down for a family. how fast eh. n very soon will see babies popping out. my goodness! we are all really getting old! hahas.

2009-07-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

whoa. im back finally. hahas, tot of starting the habit to blog down some of my thoughts.. again.

hmmm so much things happened since the last time i blogged. probably this post may juz be another emo blog again. lol.

somehow or rather i felt my life's getting rather stagnant. im kinda sick of it entirely. n i felt i may juz hav some kind of career depression. lol. its so bad that there's this period of time the moment i stepped into nhc i felt total depressed. but once i stepped out of the horrible place, i felt like a freed bird. once, i almost had the sudden urge to stop anything to do wif healthcare line and to change drastically from healthcare to accounting or even tourism and hospitality. i donno. i used to tink 'oh i know my purpose now, im gonna be in healthcare sector frm now onwards.' but its thru so much going-thrus, so much lessons and experiences i gained that i queried my purpose in life now.

sometimes i asked myself, is healthcare gonna be my iron rice bowl? n if it is, why aint i feeling happy to be in this line? why am i making myself to stay on when im not happy wif this job at all? i felt envious towards eva. i felt envious towards mimi. i felt so sad to always be organising farewell parties for my friends. seeing them one by one leaving made me have mixed feelings. sad but yet happy for them. when will it be my turn? *shruggs* now, the only motivation that drives me on is the $$ i get every month and my remaining khakis. im really lost.

on top of that, i felt something is lacking in my life. something is missing which i don hav a single idea what is it actually. i know there is smth missing but i donno what. i juz knew it. if not i wouldnt feel so motivationless everyday.

*emo-ing*

=(

2008-09-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

so nice! ^o^
I just love Jay~ wahahas =D

2008-06-01T21:42:00.015+08:00

Joe Hisaishi Live performance - Princess Mononoke

My god, I'm completely awed by the sound of er hu! It's sooo beautiful with that tinge of chi-na sound in it!

2008-05-31T23:58:00.003+08:00

Something i come across in an email.

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge. The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,'Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river.'
The little girl said, 'No, Dad. You hold my hand.'
'What's the difference?' Asked the puzzled father.
'There's a big difference,' replied the little girl. 'If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.'

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours...

2008-05-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

It's such an irony. Working life is never as peaceful nor as happy than school life.

Today's 2nd of may. Which means, there'll be a new management. New boss. New plans for the lab.

My eyelids had been twitching. Somehow I just don't feel right. I can sense that there'll be dark days in the future. =( (anti-SQ)

Good luck.

2008-04-06T23:06:00.019+08:00

Some random photos to keep you updated with what I've been busy with lately. (except that I haven't gotten the cardiac outing photos from mimi)

30th March - Dinner and Dance

5th April - Feli's 21st bday chalet
(err, I don't have peirong's birthday chalet pictures with me.)

6th April - at Labrador park
cldn't seem to get the picture bigger! -.-"

2008-03-23T14:19:00.014+08:00

As requested, here's my random entry again. Hadn't had any motivation as to what to blog. Hence, my bloggy became dusty.

Few updates about myself..

Fell really sick on valentine's day. Poor me, guess I really have 'lao lu ming'. I'd fall sick whenever I'm on leave. argh, tat's really bad. Had a persistent fever of 38 plus minus deg cel for almost 3 to 4 days. Found out that I had a tonsilitis, with big residual ulcers on my throat after my fever subside. I can hardly eat anything, not even swallow a sip of water. It is really that painful. And there goes my valentine's day this year. =(

Soon after I recovered, I had to attend my Basic Cardiac Life Support recertification course to renew my cert which only valid for the past 2 years. Oh man, I tell you its so super tiring to actually perform a one man CPR. The protocol had changed from 15compressions:2ventilations to 30compressions:2ventilations for 5 cycles in total within 2 minutes. So for tat day, I had compressed the dummy for a total of minimum 150 times! T_T After the test, my hand became red and for an instant my whole world was spinning after all the blowing and pressing within such a short period of time. lols! It's a relief that I passed. =)

Met up with my sec 4 classmates at Chaileng's 21st bday party last week. It's been a real long time since i last saw each of them, except for cheng of course. Some did changed alot, esp the bday girl herself. It's really nice to catch up wif these old friends. And the common thing for the day was tat most of us are playing patapon! lols.

Alright, til then I shall blog again. =)

2008-02-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

Something which I don't understand. Why are man being created to have comments on every single thing on earth? Everyone's being observed everyday by everyone around. People gives compliments when things are going on smoothly. It is when things start to be a sore to the eye, comments will start coming in. One or two comments are alright. It is when comments start to get more, comments start to get unpleasant, the relationship between A n B begins to deteriorate.

Tell me, what is more to be so f*cked up to quarrel on CNY, the first day of CNY, over matters which i supposed were alrdy somehow settled? What's so great about a son-in-law trying to act n take over what is not directly concerning him, well other than it affects his wife? It's definitely more of being nosey than being initiative. Unhappiness n personal matters can be talked to behind the doors, n not to be poured out in front of everyone, trying to make the other party difficult to come off stage. Will this gives you more credits? For f*ck? Being a MORE filial son-in-law? Bullshit. What's more, ending the quarrel with a 'Wang Ba Dan aka bastard'. Great, before you get this word out from your mouth, think about yourself. This description might suits you better than it suits her.

It certainly gave me another impression of him, n his wife. Both singing the same tune. Rude, barbaric behaviour. Worst of all, not manly at all. Seriously, I really hate guys or men who don't give a damn at all to quarrel wif girls or women as though there were some blood hatred going on. You definitely don't earn any respect at all, esp from me. I can only say, well done. You made me see the other side of you.

I doubt it will be easy for me to face you as though nothing has happened.

2008-01-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

i wonder if anyone still blogs bout their resolutions.

Anyway, Happy 2008! It's yet another brand new year again. To others, it may be a new beginning in a different environment, be it studying or working. To me, it is just another working day. boring!

I'm down wif the horrible flu, sore throat n 2 big monstrous mouth ulcers on the last day of 2007. Now, though my flu n sore throat had recovered slightly, my 2 ulcers are still as big! argh. can't even eat or talk properly! =(

2007 indeed was a big turn over for me. A fresh poly grad, raw and inexperienced me, stepping into the working society. As the folks saying goes, no job is ever easy. True enough, my work place is an example. Stressful workload. That goes to explain why I've become more n more naggy, always complaining bout every single detail that went wrong with work or that made me upset on. Sometimes I even go to the extent of blaming on the lifestyles of Singaporeans that made the number of patients increased so drastically in the healthcare sector - why would people had such bad daily lifestyles, not exercising regularly nor eating healthily. However come to think of it, I'm one myself too.

You know, its really a joy to sit in class, to listen to the lecturers chanting away in comparison with being at work. At work, you are forced to be independent, having to face with all sorts of people to deal with be it your colleagues or the patients. It's while at work you see a total complex environment: bad-mouthings, politics, words between lines. Whereas in class it's so much simpler, so much innocence, it's all about learning together, working towards one goal which is to pass our exams.

Other than work, 2007 had been an eventful year for me too:
- Broke my health record of falling ill twice a year, I actually fell ill more than 4 times this year!
- Passed my piano exam with distinction =D.
- Overseas trip after so long. Went Bintan to de-stress. hahs.
- Went KL for echo conference.
- Received a surprise from dear on my birthday, got my fav phone k810i. =D
- Had a bad sore eye during my birthday. MC for the whole week! boohoo. =(
- Had a car accident on hari raya haji.
- Lastly, signed a one-year horrible bond in NHC.

To end off, its resolutions again! hahs. I remembered my resolution last year was to grow fatter. Yes, guess i've somewhat achieved. just that the fats did not get to where i wanted them to be, instead it went to where i do not want it to be. -.-" my stomach! well, this year i shall change this die-heart resolution of mine and ask for something small. I shall learn to minimise my naggings, be a happier and healthier person, to love and to be loved by my dearest dear more. =)

2007-12-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

Been to Rainie's autograph session last wk.. Had a close-up view when I got her signature. She is sooo pretty! hahs.

Missed F.I.R's today. Hahs, wasted..

2007-11-15T01:52:00.000+08:00

My old problem strikes back again. I can never stressed myself too much. Once I cross the boundary, my headache will come. I tell u, this is the first time I ever did only 2 echo in the afternoon n had a terrible headache after tat. SUPER headache! I guess I was too stressed up. All becoz of our beloved empress dowager. SQ! oh my god. haiz. You can imagine how stressful it is when I was being scolded by her til i'm near tears! It's like every word she said carried a dozen knives which really can stabbed you to death. I swear I rather get scolded by chuah man a hundred times than get scolded by SQ once. You know as how an empress dowager is, even when they walk, there will be this gust of 'wind' behind them. not to mention.. opening the mouth to speak. even more wind.

Poor me, am definitely not competent at all, first timer to her session. Gah-brah alot. Somemore my regionals are like shit. I know there's regionals abnomalities but still quite unsure how to really score it. Once SQ step in, she asked if there's posterior infarct. I was unsure, went to check the case sheet n she scolded me.

"I don't want you to refer to the case sheet. Now look at this image and tell me wats wrong with it."
'Err, posterior infarct? Its hypo?'
"No! Look at it properly. Wat is the first thing that comes into mind. Where's the infarct? How's the wall like?"
'Err, its abit thin out, n hypo?'
"What? Excuse me, if its thin out, juz say its thin out. There is no abit thin out."

blah blah blah. There she is kept switching from long axis to short axis, to apical views asking me to score the regionals. Argh.

"How long hav you been doing echo?"
'2 to 3 mths?'
"What? My goodness, my doctors hav to go through 6 mths before they can do independently. How can a technician be independent only after 3mths?"
yea, I oso don wanna do her session loh. I rather do whole week's chuah man session or ding jie's session rather than hers la.

So, she went on finding more faults in me. The sweep speed was originally like tat, fixed to her protocol, she scold. My image is too bright over at the RA n LA, she scold. Said its redundant to put SOOO much density on the irrelevant stuffs. My endocardium was not properly seen (its the best tat i could get!), she scold. She even asked me to show her how I do echo, n wants me to get the endocardium properly in front of her after her demonstrating to me. Argh, there's still more shits she gave me. This caused me to have 0% level of confidence when she asked me to do the next echo. I felt I'm being struck back to the very raw trainee I initially started off as. I had totally NO confidence in saving the images at all, even though the image looks ok. I had to think thrice before I save. If not I'll be inviting myself to more knives stabbings. Lucky TLK was there to supervise. I'm so glad the 2nd echo was a normal case. *sweats* Anyway there's more stunts I hadnt typed out. Too many to be mentioned. Ask me if you wan.

p/s: I wanna complain. Its really unfair to put me in SQ session when I'm not competent enuf, n when I hadnt' had my competency test yet! It really made me felt so upset I hadn't had appetitte for dinner. Morale was so low. N tat leads me to another thing. Big eye stepped on my tail for this incident. Thanks to her.

Going KL. Finally few days off from the heartless place. I hope the conference doesnt bores too much. Be back next week.

2007-10-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

I don't like to be in a place full of quarrels, arguments, tears and fights for 24-7 throughout the years n in the near future. I don't like it at all, neither can I stand it. =(

If you ask me, sometimes I even dread going back to that place.

Where's the harmony? I miss her. Maybe wif her presence, things might be in a better situation. Or rather, things may not turn out to be so.. complicated.

p/s: I realised with each obstacles I surpassed, yes I believed I'd grow stronger. N yet at the same time I've become more immuned to the situation faced, culturing a can't-be-bothered attitude.

2007-10-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

hey hey! i'm back again. some updates' here, shan't talk much will let the pictures do the talkings. =)

Bintan

The horizon.

p/s: i've still got more pics to upload. will do it when i'm free! hehs..

2007-09-19T13:13:00.000+08:00

18th September 2007

Happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday to me.
Happy bbiirrtthhddaayy to mmeeee...
Happy birthday to me!

Yeah, I'm officially 20years old liaox. First of all, thanks so much to all my friends who have sent their birthday wishes to me. These wishes did afterall brightens up my day wif some msgs which are so humorous. hahs.

Eg,
"No matter how old you grow, you will always be the ah gong." (Thanks ah.)
"Hope your ban mian will become more n more delicious." (hahas.)
"Wish your eyes will become stronger n stronger." (lol.)

Anywae, I didnt get to celebrate my birthday ytd. Because my dear right eye has gotten infected by my sis - SORE EYES!! AHHH! Who would have expected it right? hahs, Poor me. I'm so depressed n sad on mon when my eye got so red. Took 2 days leave for bday celebration, ended up I've to take 3 days MC, spent it at home recuperating my poor eye.

Nevertheless, my bday wasnt that bad afterall. Because of a surprise I got from my darling. k810i! Tthhannkk yyoouu sooo much..! *hugs* Throughout all these years, this is indeed my most zhen gui pressie. ^.^

2007-09-09T00:15:00.000+08:00

People often say that short people have a low centre of gravity, thus able to balance well. Unlike tall people, they are more prone to losing their balance.

Hahs, well for me.. its more of the opposite way. Do you guys remember me posting up entries on myself falling down unnecessarily on awkward occasions few times before? lols. yea, so you are right. I've fallen down AGAIN ytd! argh. AGAIN AGAIN! clumsy girl. Worse still I got myself wif terrible bruises. One on my elbow's scar, one on my knee. Its an open wound on the scar, whereas a BIG blue black on the knee.

So, here's my story. I fell from my bed aft getting up from a nap. Stepped on my sis's clothes which happened to be at the edge of her bed, slipped n fell flat. Had a slit on my scar, it bled. T_T. Fell on my knees wif a big 'THUMP', the blue black covers one quarter of my knee cap. boohoo! pain pain pain pain pain!

Anyway, I've got a thought-of-the-day from Dr Guna.

"Don't do something today which you can do tomorrow."

Its true eh. Slack whenever you can. So, whenever you're stressed up, think about this quote. Hahs. I like Dr Guna. He is forever so funny. =)

2007-08-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

Look at this.

Your Weight: 41.9kg

Your Height: 1.55m

Your BMI: 17.44kg/m2

Your Healthy Weight Range: 44.4-55.0 kg

Health Tip:
You are at risk of developing nutritional deficiency and osteoporosis. You may be eating less food than what your body needs. Eat more frequent meals but do not overindulge in food high in fat and sugar. Regular exercise makes you fit and may stimulate your appetite.

Yes you are right. That's my weight, my height and my BMI (Body Mass Index). Hahs ok, so all along I've still been underweight. Yea still. I tot I had at least gained abit. So saddening. But hey, I've been eating alot actually! Junk foods, full meals, milk, chocolates, etc etc. Well, other than not exercising regularly, I've fulfiled all the other criterias with my appetite not affected in any ways. Shruggs. Maybe I should try eating MORE fatty stuffs. (hopefully I don't end up getting myself doing cath next time. lols)

So wat's BMI? Here goes my health talk. lols. It's actually an indication of your risk to many health problems. High BMI can results in heart disease, high blood pressure, stroke, diabetes, some cancers and osteoarthritis. Knowing them early can give you an early warning to take action and cutting down your usual habits to reduce your risk. So, your health adviser here advises you to watch your diet carefully. Eat healthy, stay healthy. =)

Well, if you wanna try calculating your BMI, here's the formula.

BMI (kg/m2) = Weight (kg) / (Height x Height) (metres)

Range:
27.5 (kg/m2) and above -> High Risk
23-27.4 (kg/m2) -> Moderate Risk
18.5-22.9 (kg/m2) -> Low Risk (Healthy Range)
< 18.5 (kg/m2) -> Risk of nutritional deficiency diseases and osteoporosis.

Don't be like me. Forever underweight. lols.

2007-08-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

Whoa, this is super fu gu. Taken when I was in sec 4, having my last concert combined wif fhss at SCH.

Hahs all of a sudden there's a 'missing' urge in me, reminiscience-ing the good old days. All becoz of meiyue's comment left in my friendster, which urged me to post up this photo. Anyway, this is the closest one i could find, similar as tat to meiyue's, from my computer.

Girls! Let's meet up soon. Missing especially meiyue, the has-been-MIA one.

2007-08-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

Whining Cum Complaining entry (a definitely boring one)

Alrights somehow i'm starting to get used to my new hse. somehow. However, there's a really huge contrast i found between my old n new hse. Its the busy-ness roads all over Jurong West and the bustling life these Jurong West pp have everytime the sky falls dark. Its a total opposite situation over at Pandan where everywhere seemed so peaceful and calm with one or two cars drove past once awhile when the sun went down. This is smth I still have and am learning to cope with. Becoz I get rather irritated whilst crossing the main road whenever I alight at the bus stop opposite my block. Why? It actually took me quite awhile to wait for the road to clear before I'm able to cross it safely! Can you imagine how busy the road still is even when its alrdy like 2 or 1 more hour before the clock strikes twelve. -.-" Arent you irritated just when u took the first step to cross and a car just turned its corner and drive towards you? Or even, the SBS bus would just made a fast and sudden turn at the junction such that you are afraid to cross? In addition, my current hse is indeed not easily accessible.

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Anyway, according to what happened over at work today, I concluded that I really really really really really really dislike our 'No.1'. ARGH. Know what my colleagues and I faced today? We found out that there's actually a swopped report between patient A and B. To think we actually had to dig out the past archived files to tally the data. ALL last min work, last min discovery when the clinic called for report, saying the patient had alrdy arrived, seeing the doctor that instant. Made soo much confusion between us, afraid of sorting out wrong data for patient and the particulars. Having headaches and difficulties trying to brainstorm and resolve the problem. Its serious loh, when if you get the wrong report for the correct patient, it can actually affect the patient's life shld the doctor diagnose wrongly! Lucky there's no major problems for both patient A and B. If not, we will all be hung the next day. =/

Anyway back to topic, shld she not made us slog our lives out everyday, the quality of the work would have been better. Things like these wouldnt happened. I'm not complaining that my work is stressful, I'm just unhappy that we are all stressed out doubly, triply, millionly times more than other cardiac labs, having to only have one end result at the end of the day - to increase the statistics of this so called well-recognised healthcare group and at the same time to satisfy the overflowing demand of patients. Quantity with no quality. Sad to say. I'm not surprised if one day all of us starts to turn our back against her n riot. Its really that bad.

To think I've to be stuck in the heartless place for next one year. haiz.

P/S: Only pp in this heartless place will understand.

2007-08-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

ok, moving house tml n the whole house is extremely messy. how messy? if you stepped into my hse now u might mistook yourself for stepping into someone's storeroom. boxes everywhere, now I have lil space to walk ard! hahs.

-pre-moving house syndrome-

Bye people, the Pandan gang.

2007-08-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

My mood has taken the shape of a sine curve recently, fluctuating up and down so often. I felt so depressed these few days w/o any reasons. Wonder whether this is the after-effect of a fever. *shruggs* It was til then I realised I hadn't been having good desserts, not counting the one I ate on sunday since yours truely had alrdy been seriously immune attacked.

But hey, don't be surprised. Good desserts can do wonders. Mark my words for it. At least it worked for me and my few khakis at work. Take a look at this.

Haiz, hopefully my mood will take for a better turn, soon. Who knows, this may just be another symptom of PMS. hahs.

Maybe I shld turn to chocs instead for the time being.

2007-07-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

I chanced upon Edwin's blog n saw this.

seriously, I was completely awed by this lil girl.
6 years old wif such a beautiful voice..

2007-06-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

Last post - 10th May 2007. hahs, wat a long time ago since i last blogged.

well, some of u guys may have been wondering how i am, whether if i'm still alive anot. hahs, don worry i'm still not dead slogging in NHC. well probably half dead i shld say. my eye bags have been getting bigger and bigger, darker and darker. (i'm quite concealer dependent now.) even my pimples are popping out. great great great. argh. alrights, enuf of my complains. I felt i've became naggier n grumpier than the past. lols.

ok, some lil updates about me. If u havent been seeing me for quite a long time, you might be shocked seeing me on streets wif short hair. yes! i'm with short hair now or rather have been with for the past one month. hahs, a breakthrough for me as i hadnt had short hair for like several donkey years alrdy. hmmm i supposed when i was in primary school. yes correct. well, the main reason being i'm rather sick of my long hair. looks.... yawns. However, ever since i cut short, there will be a bit bit regrets in me whenever i see people wif long hair. hahs! how contradicting eh?

recently, my left eye has been giving me problems. sudden redness, sudden pain, for no reason. went to see an eye doctor n was given eye drops. now, the redness and pain is like on n off problem.the optometrist said it may be due to my contact lens, causing some allergic spots on my eye lids. boohoo! hopefully my eyes will recover soon. if not, i wouldnt be able to wear my lens in peace. T_T

tomorrow is my ah ma's 1 year anniversary. time really -zzoomm- passes soo fast. its like i still felt tat she has never left us. well, probably that's becoz my ah ma lives in my heart now. =)

well, i'll stop here. will blog again soon (i'll try my best.) hahs.

2007-05-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

whoa, it has been since like donno how long i haven been listening to ghost stories nor watched any scarryyy movies or shows. N today, i spent half of my aftnoon listening to my colleagues relate about some happenings in nhc before. >.<

my god, i'm still having some chills now whenever i'm left alone in a quiet room. Eeewww. i was kind of shock to know that there are cases whereby patients did die in nhc, becoz the patients dont look as sickly as those in hospital. true enuf there are a few rooms in nhc whereby if u were to be in there alone, u'll feel some weird chills and hair-standing feeling. anyway, i guess there's bound to have such feeling esp since this is a hospital area and nhc is like just beside the mortuary. =/

p/s: btw, i can tell u the stories if u guys are interested. ask me ask me! hahas.

On the other hand, i was wondering if anyone still rmb my die-heart resolution for every year? hahs, i'm actually feeling half happy and half sad that i'm getting fatter now. BUT the main prob is, the fats aint getting to anywhere of my body except my stomach. ARGH GRRR. that is SO horrendously irritating can. i'm really pissed off n irritated by the bulging fats whenever i finished my every meals. maybe i shld get uzap some day. lols. -Zzzaaappp Zzzaaappp- okok serious. i must set goals now. to exercise! (i hope my exercise plan doesnt fail. =/)

so to end this, here's smth funny for u guys. donno if u all have watched it before. enjoy!

No Porku!

2007-05-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

yeah! i am a happy girl now. hahas.

seriously, i haven't been spending money on myself for quite some time.

anyway, i've juz gotten myself some stuffs recently.
1) a bottle of victoria secret's body lotion,
2) a pair of shoes,
3) a watch.

they din cost much though, esp the watch which was sold from push carts at $9.90. wonder how will its life span be, hmmm.. but the pattern is unique wif flowers design n shiny stuffs on it. i donno, i'm actually grinning to myself while looking at the watch. hhaapppyy!! hahas you see, tat goes to show how dull my life has been to the extent that i can be cheered up by just a $9.90 watch. lol.

anyway, my main point here is that its healthy to splurge once in awhile. hehs. =D

now my next aim will be to wait for a few more weeks for the Great Singapore Sale to come. *grinns*

2007-04-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

hey i'm back everyone! Pardon me for not updating all these while. After getting much "why-no-blog's" I've decided to update abit so my dear friends wont miss me too much =D

Alright this girl here has been caught up with work. Life has been monotonous so far, without any special events happening. My daily routine has been as follows,

wake up > breakfast > work > lunch > work > home > dinner > sleep

Ain't my dear friends pitying me? I'm so jealous when Peee and Peirong's blog mentioned bought shopping. In the midst of my bland life, I seriously need my friends to spice it up once in awhile. (so please be more initiative Miss Loke and Miss Yeo. =D hahs)

Hmmm at least I did catch up abit with some of my other friends through msn, my only source of communication. Glad to hear that all are still doing fine!

Here's a lil update:
> Working
> Had my first kbox session using a mic to sing with colleagues! lols
> Peiyan's BBQ at ECP
> Yuki Yaki with classmates
> Bought 4 pairs of earrings in one shot. Kawaii!
> Cut my hair til shoulder length long
> Been packing my house these weeks. Moving house soon le. No more Pandan-Teban gang =(

Well I guess that's about it so far. Will update soon again.

P/S: I'm looking forward to my payday. hahas! $_$

2007-03-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

Hi. it's been awhile MIA-ing these days as I've recently just started my full time job back at my attachment place - NHC. Asked me about my first job, I can only describe it in two simple words. Stressful and stressful. Since the first day I've started work til date, have had some really 'interesting' or eventful incidents happened, I guess I shall share some with you guys.

My first week was quite alright for me as basically I was mostly learning the workflow and performing practically on the non-invasive procedures like doing Holter (24-hr ECG) and Treadmill tests. It was a really whole chunk of stuffs to follow and in any case should I mis-do it, trouble may come knocking onto my door. At least for the first week I have with me my seniors guiding. But it wasn't so smooth sailing when it came to my second week, which is from monday til now.

'Coz for this week, I'm supposed to be on my own to handle procedures. Which I felt I myself weren't confident yet to be independent. Shruggs, no choice. Its either I survived in this big ocean or I drown in it.

And all my eventful incidents started from yesterday morning. Having to help out to remove the Holter devices from patients, I did my part and went to the Holter room to transfer the data from the device to the controller and memory card. Colleague X was doing Holter and told me to help her transfer the rest of the 3 devices, waiting to be transferred, after the current device was done. So I was about to transfer device B after A was done when Colleague X came out after hooking a device on a patient and asked why I transfer the data from device B at this moment when she needed the controller now. I was immediately pissed by what she said. Because firstly, she can start the device on the patient without using a controller (short cut way) and secondly, she WAS the one who told me to help her transfer the data over. I was like, what-the-fuk-?, shot her back saying she was the one who asked for my help and I went away carrying memory card of device A out to analyse. I never stepped back to that room for the rest of the morning to transfer the data for her.

Today was worst. I was scheduled to do treadmill with her. There were 10 listed patients for today's appointment. I was preparing my patients one at a time. I swear I wasn't dily daly-ing, wasn't slowly preparing the patients. She was preparing her patients too. And there she was being stressed up by the number of patients turning up together one immediately after another. She got so stressed up that she wanted to finish the patients fast and claimed that I was being very slow. I was doing my paperwork while she preparing her patient and kept mumbling 'you are really slow, very slow.' Eh hello, its not like you are super fast anyway.

Then came a patient with positive result for treadmill and needed constant monitoring to ensure his stability. I had to monitor and Colleague X told me to go prep another patient. I told her I can prep but only after my patient had stabilised. She nagged at me saying I can't multi task. And at the end of the session when we had settled all the reports ready, Colleague X was flipping through the reports so I assumed she was checking. I offered to put the reports into the doc's dip and even asked her permission for it. She said ok. But went complaining to my friend in the aftnoon that I did not check the reports thoroughly as there's one report with changes that need to be amended. She also went complaining to the treadmill in-charge that I did not photocopy the right pages of report when I was used to be taught the old way, when I was an attachment student and now changes had been made, she did not inform me about it. Everything she maligned or assumed, she complained to the in-charge. n I had to stay back during lunch for a talk wif in-charge who asked me what happened.

So there's a short 'counselling' and I was told that every new comer having to partner with her went through the same situation as me. I felt relieved but yet still angry. Colleague X was also one who gets and makes herself stressed whenever numerous patients turn up at the same time. Kan Cheong I should say. So it's all about adapting to her way of doing things. So long as I've nothing for her to nag or pick on, I'm definitely safe. Sometimes gossips and rumors really spread fast. By knock-off time, some of my seniors came asking me for details. All replied the same thing to me. Colleague X has an unique way of doing her things. We have to adapt to her unique way of handling procedures. (For this, i felt it's really, Fuck la. Big shot. Can't she quit this weird habit of hers instead?)

My senior told me. For this, I have to be fast in spreading this kind of incidents for Colleague X may be faster than you in spreading bad and untrue statements about you. There's still more details I haven't blog about. How amazing. So many unhappy stuffs can happened in these 5 hours. Worst still, I was arranged to be in charge of ECG machines with her. Great. I'll have a hard time trying to adapt to her UNIQUE way of doing things.

Haha, hope my eventful story had not brought you guys to sleep. I was almost angry to tears this morning. WU LAI!! The feeling of being maligned is terrible. Really.

I've to learn to adapt to this masked working environment. I guess this is what people usually call it as Se Hui Da Xue (The University of Society). Looks can be deceiving. Really true. T_T

Haiz. Endure!

2007-02-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

I'm back!

juz came online when a msn window popped out immediately. was told the official recordings of MDxxx were out in the band blog. so i went to listen. i donno whether if its the music itself or was it me. my goosebumps were all out. its either the music were too nice or its been ages since i last had band practice or played trumpet that made me realised the reason of my boring life nowadays.

anyway, some little updates about myself.
> have been waiting for my 'future employer' to ring me.
> slacking most of the time.
> been engrossed in 'hua yang shao nian shao nui'
(n i tell you, wu zhun is soooooo shuai!!! -oh my gosh-)
> shopping?
> juz taken up 'audition sea' aft being introduced by cheng.
(really being a retard initially, pressing all the arrow keys retardly. lols)
> got myself sunburnt cum suntanned? few days ago.
> playing
> playing
> playing....

n the list goes on and on. so basically my boring life had been revolving around P-L-A-Y. I supposed my work may start probably sometimes during march. so ask me out! im free everyday until the horror of working life starts.

p/s: if u ever thought of trying a new combination of bubble tea for a change, don't ever order sour plum milk tea. its a big NO-NO! don believe? you can try it if you want. don regret. shruggs.

2007-02-08T18:09:00.000+08:00

hooray!

8th feb 2007 marked the day i'm unofficially graduated. the feeling of handing in my paper, taking my bag and stepping out of the examination room was - undescribable. a feeling of relief, a feeling of joy, a feeling of im-finally-out-of-sp! but yet another part of me felt aiyer-ive-graduated-i-will-miss-those-days. hahs, such a contradiction. but i did feel relieved after these days of tough mugging, frustration over the huge chunk of horribly much stuffs to memorise. its scary though for i haven had been having major exams, having to write 2 20-marks essay qns and 4 10-marks short ans qns for 2 consecutive semesters already.

lols.

you know, i felt i've mugged til the whole of my head was almost exploding soon. this is something which i have not been doing for my past 5 semesters, where i could take upon my exams so easily, having to only start studying 2-3 days before. actually, i did feel guilty having to look at my past results. they sucks alot. hopefully i would have a nicer results slip this time round, having not to regret that i did put in 101% of effort to chiong for my last semester.

next step?

waiting for my upcoming interviews for job. sometimes i can't believe it myself, i'm actually going to step into the working society, into the next phase of my life already. all of a sudden, i felt i've aged a few years. hahs.

i guess i might start to miss SP soon. lols. the times spent in lectures, the friends i met for the past 3 years. the friends i've mugged and laughed hard with in class. the friends i've made wonderful music with in band. the lecturers who have taught us or getting themselves laughed at by us. such fond memories will always be kept unforgotten.

Good Bye SP. =)

2007-01-24T15:04:00.000+08:00

you know as the days towards exams drew nearer, I'm beginning to get more worried. It's not about my modules, but rather I'm worried that I couldn't find a job. I don't know if I'm unlucky or well, probably my results aint that fantastic that's why til now I still hadn't been asked for an interview. My friend though, submitted her resume and cover letter to various hospitals and had gotten reply from all. -.-" Must this world be that realistic? I don't know. Just praying hard I could get a reply soon. I don't want to be left jobless. T_T

And my luck hadn't been good these days. Since yesterday morning, had some kind of acute skin allergy on my legs and hands. argh. It looked so horrible. It's like, I had some kind of terminal skin disease. It's super itchy loh, with one big red patch here and one big red patch there. All at my joints area, be it my fingers, wrist, elbow, knee, ankle, toes, you name it. I couldn't help but to scratch alot. My mum told me I was being bitten by bedbugs and I was turned off immediately. PARASITES! argh, I hate all of them. Depending on mammals' blood to thrive. *despised* But I thought it couldnt be bedbugs when I've changed my bedsheets not long ago. So I supposed my skin problem would be solved after changing my bedsheets again but NO! It's not the bedbugs!! It came again this morning. And I jolly well had no choice but to seek doctor's help. Dr Liew told me it was 'feng mo'. Well, caused by some things I might have eaten wrongly, thus having some weird chemical changes in me, she said. Shruggs. So please my dear friends, if you happened to caught me in school with red patches, you should know why. And I'm not infectious. hahas, so don't worry. -helpme.icantstandtheitch!!-

Speedy recovery to myself. I don't want to carry the itchness with me to exams. >_<

2007-01-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

14th January 2007 marked the last day of my poly band life. Ask me if its the end of my entire band life? I don't know. Probably, shruggs. Time really passes by very fast. Months of band practices, hours of hard work all ended with a great and enjoyable 2-hour concert. Really, MDXXX was one of my most memorable concert in my entire band life.

Seriously, I'm having all kinds of feelings since the last band practice til after MD. I have in me, happy, joy, glad, relieved, sad, cant-bear kinds of emotions. I thought I could have graduated from SPBand without any tears shed but yet that very night after concert when we had our final section meeting, touched my heart alot. Too much things to say but yet I don't know from where should I begin with. I guess, I've probably already penned down my deepest thoughts to my section in that email. The last talkings, the last hugs, I'll never forget. I'll miss you guys alot!

Really thanks to all my band friends for all these years, the joy and fun we had during sectionals and band practices. Especially thanks to LaoBan for being such a wonderful conductor, I really learnt alot in terms of music wise. I'd always been so amazed by how knowledgable LaoBan is, who can actually remember and recite all the weird composers' names, their backgrounds, the years in music history etc to us. hahs. Lastly, thanks to all my dear friends who had came to lend their support! =)

Guess, I shan't continue much anymore. Otherwise it will be extremely wordy. I shall let the pictures do the talkings then! Enjoy..

Upon reaching VCH..

it was supposed to be a solemn photo w/o zeyu. look at weiliang's face!

i realised we didn't had a photo taken with gown on. my god.

Before concert commences..

very fu gu! hahas.

after all the 3 years in SPSB, we're the only threesomes left.

During interval..

After concert..

Back at home after collating..

Pressies! Thanks alot my dear friends. =D

Last but not least,

memorable memories. =)

All the best to everyone, especially the year 3s, in your future endeavours! =)

2007-01-07T13:54:00.000+08:00

MD XXX
Date: 14th January 2007
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Time: 5pm
Price: $12 & $15
Repertoire:
Hands Across the Sea
Fantasy Variation
Concertino for Bassoon
Star Wars Saga
Interval
Poetic Intermezzo (Alumni Band)
Five Wood Itsuki No Komoriuta (Alumni Band)
When Saints Go Marching In (Alumni Band)
Five Variants of "Dives and Lazarus" (Singapore Premiere)
The Lord Of the Ring Mvmt V 'Hobbits'
Disney Fantasy

To my dear dear friends, please come support! This will probably be my last time performing on stage le. Contact me if you're interested ok??

2007-01-05T16:44:00.000+08:00

"One can of Pokka Green Tea."

"One Chrysanthemum Tea will do. Thanks."

"Wu Loong Cha one."

Tea, a drink most people love. However, have you ever wonder whether the tea that you're drinking is doing you well? Nah. not me. Who would bother right? I mean, you don't often see people ordering cups of tea and asking the waiter or waitress the pros of it. I bet the waiter or waitress will give you a blank stare instead. hahs. Well, i came across this interesting email. thought of sharing with everyone.

Are You Drinking the Right Tea??

1. People who use their "brain" to work or students who study hard day and night.
> Should drink Chrysanthemum Tea

2. People who need a lot of body energy to work or those people that do a lot of exercise everyday.
> Should drink Wu Loong Cha

3. People who travel on a bike or work in dirty and polluted places.
> Should drink Green Tea

4. For people who likes to sit down all day long and not doing anything even exercising.
> Should drink Green Tea and Flower Tea

5. People who smoke and drink alot of alcoholic drinks.
> Should drink more Green Tea

6. Carnnivore (those people who must eat meat at least once a day), feel sick or not feeling well.
> Should drink some Wu Loong Tea

7. People who go to the washroom too often or too less.
> Should drink more Honey Tea

8. People with high cholesterol and high blood pressure.
> Should drink Wu Loong Cha or Green Tea

9. Those who work with computers everyday.
> Need to drink quite an amount of tea. any tea will do

Whenever you are working with the computer, you should make some tea, drink it when you are free.

Drinking Tea is healthy, it can protect and prevent the harmful Ultraviolet light from harming us (when using computer).

Furthermore, it can also cure us when we are tired and help making our body feel fresh again.

Ask me about the reliability of this email. Seriously, I don't know. But, there's no harm trying, aint it?? I'm glad I'm a Pokka Green Tea fan cum lover. *healthy!* hahas. No Pokka, No drink. But I'm learning to accept other brands' Green Tea. =)

2006-12-30T19:01:00.000+08:00

its my annual routine once again to blog down the significant events when it is year end. (however, it might be a solemn entry.)

aint it fast? its gonna be 2007 soon. i had once said, 2004 n 2005 hadnt been a good yr for me at all. for me, i had more of downs than ups. so i was praying tat i would have a good yr ahead for 2006. yeah indeed, 2006 turned out fine for me. i finished my itp (which i was so happily looking forward to). left with one more poly semester to go. had a few major, extra-curriculum exams n they came out well. got even closer to my classmates aft tat particular chalet. n not forgetting the one who always brings out the smile in me - my beloved bf. =)

however, amongst these happy events which happened, i lost someone so dearly in my life. someone so important to me, it pained my heart even til now. her life, ever so well-respected n loved, was lost to my most hated illness. cancer. such a once so healthy person could lost tremendous weight til skin n bone, having to suffer under that torturous illness. we, the bystanders, unable to do anything beneficial can only stand at one side, accompanying her til the last day of her time with us. i tink im beginning to develop a new phobia. i fear of losing my loved ones. i hated this feeling. such an unbearable feeling to go thru. people always said let the time heals. yeah, but however much time i was given, it can never heal this scar in me well. even til now if i try recalling about her to you, i'll definitely cry. i love my ah ma.

on top of that, there's another unsolved major problem my mum n dad are facing now. i cant rmb the exact one but there's this saying which says a wave which hadnt reside, came another wave. it means, an unsolved problem was piled onto another problem. fun huh, playing stacko. -.-" but im kinda sick of it. or rather, i feel my parents, too, need to take a breath. hopefully, it will be a better year for us in 2007.

in addition, ms tan had also left tsmb. it's definitely a waste to lose a good conductor like her. never in my life had anyone taught me stuffs she had taught before. what she taught, moulded what the current zhihui is now. i mean, its really sad to see her part. for ms tan: once a teacher, always a teacher. =)

looking back, for my 2006 life, indeed i gained some n i lost some. be it family, friends, love, studies or band, i had smiles and even shed tears. for each gain and each lost i believe will build a stronger me. from my inner soul:"be strong! unfortunate events will not happen every year. even the darkest moments of your life will find the way to light one day. look forward to a better tomorrow!"

lastly, i have a die-hard resolution for every year - that is to say, i muz grow fatter!! this resolution of mine will always be the same and will never change. unless, it appeared as 50kg on weighing scale for me. haha! as i always believed, a brand new year, a brand new start. 2006, a year i'll always remember. good bye 2006. happy 2007! =)

2006-12-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all!!
here's wishing everyhing's fine n going on smoothly for everyone. =)

well, i was kinda @@, kind of shagged these few days. shant say much bout it. its gonna be a boring one. but i did had a nice n wonderful xmas eve, aft like 2 yrs of no-comment-but-suxed xmas. went to a ktv pub for xmas countdown n also, drank chivas for the first time. heard its name but didnt had the chance to taste it. i was super shocked when i know the price of it. one bottle, $138! >_< ok, maybe i donno about the alcohol market. but to me, drinking smth tat cost $138 was really too much. hahs. lucky we were at clarke quay. i donno bout this yr, but last yr town had those foam spraying everywhere. juz don wanna get dirty n being sprayed at innocently by pp everywhere u walked down the road. hahs. dear n i left ard 1plus n reached home at 3am. -.-" coz it was really really hard trying to get a cab. we had to wait for the NR buses. by then when we reached home, we were super tired. n good gracious, i realised i din brought my keys out. felt so bad having to wake my mum up to open the door for me. =/

dear told me the famous amos cookies i got for him were nice. ok, i know but im drooling too! i had to keep my saliva frm dripping when i bought it. it really smelt sooo nice. hahas. oh well, if not they wldnt be famous amos rite. they are afterall famous. lols.

oh by the way, for those who hadnt watch the curse of the golden flower, starred by chow yun fat n jay chou (my shuai ge!!), dont waste ur money on it. if can download, go ahead download instead. lols. its really crap la the show. really thumbs down. *disappointed* =/

2006-12-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

you know, this song 'auld lang syne' always make me emo. no matter what occassion, it never fails to do so. there's this lecturer who sang this particular song in the video shown during graduation party todae. n becoz of this whole video which served as evoking the memories we had throughout our poly years, somewhere down in my heart kind of sank down. there is this 舍不得 feeling. i'm graduating soon. how fast. =(

well, whatever it is. life still goes on rite? i will definitely miss my dear dear friends. had lots of photos taken. of which, some were kind of hilarious. lols. had one decent class photo taken with our dear mr woo.

n our class won a prize for answering 10 correct answers out of 15 for the quiz given in the party. guess what prize we won?

tada! macaroni. -.-"

we are definitely proud of our prize.

today is only the graduation party. i'm still awaiting for the dinner and dance.

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And auld lang syne?

For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

And surely ye'll be your pint-stowp,
And surely I'll be mine!
And we'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

We twa hae run about the braes,
And pu'd the gowans fine;
But we've wandered mony a weary fit
Sin' auld lang syne.

For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

We twa hae paidled i' the burn,
Frae morning sun till dine;
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.

For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

And there's a hand, my trusty fiere,
And gie's a hand o' thine!
And we'll tak a right guid-willie waught

For auld lang syne.

For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

2006-12-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

yeah! darl had juz pop today. =)

one thing i don like about tekong:
i.e the ferry to and fro. no seasick will also end up have.

each and every ah bing ge there all looked the same. one jockey cap, one pair of black framed specs, short hair, number 4 and all black-faced, black-skinned. so.. its really really hard to find someone amongst the greenies. din get to see riz or darren there anyway.

2006-11-28T00:26:00.000+08:00

Moshi moshi!

Watashiwa Akimoto Michiyo desu.

aka Rimu Dozuhihui.

aka リムドズヒフイ.

Sayonara!

hahaha! my god. im juz crapping around with some simple jap language. coz im BORED!! bored, BOred, BORED! i don wan to study CSW. T_T dreaded module. anywae, japanese language is really interesting though.

check this out. jappie jappie =)

n check this out. nippon nippon =)

2006-11-26T20:26:00.000+08:00

i had a dream.
a dream so seemingly real.
a dream my heart ached a dozen time for.

i dreamt i lost a friend for another friend. of coz i dont mean lost with the meaning of life and death but literally losing a friend. in it, i bid a casual farewell to my friend n i got a reply wif 'yea, i supposed this will really be our last goodbye. take care.' n tat friend of mine, with the shoulder turned away, left me.

that impact on me wasn't a minor one. i spent days dwelling on it. maybe i was just thinking too much? yea u may say that. oh well. besides, its still a dream afterall. a dream can never be real. and that's what i hope it will be. please, don't let this dream of mine come true. =/

3 years ago, you stepped into my life. a friend worthed priceless in my heart. i love all my friends and i don't want to lose a good friend like you.

2006-11-24T22:59:00.000+08:00

- fever
- 38.2 deg cel
- shivering, feeling cold
- phlegm
- headache
- sore throat
- cough
- flu

i felt so terrible. =/ lucky the fever came. it means, i'll be fine aft it reside. im glad.

2 tablets of panadol is really effective.

2006-11-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

oh my god, i cant believe it. this may be a good news for some if it ever happened to them but it is definitely not a good news for me.

i went to see my doctor for flu, blocked and runny nose, cough today. aft doing the usual procedures in checking my health, the doc asked how heavy i am. i told her i don't know. n she asked me to step onto the weighing scale. i was shocked when i saw the figures on it. 39.6kg! >_< argh. i've lost 1kg! my god. well, probably i hadnt had my lunch tats y i feel light, but it is really total ridiculous! i guess, a big gust of wind comes by n i'll definitely be gone.

n i don understand. i'm only down with flu, sore throat n a teeny weeny lil bit of cough n the doctor gave me antibiotics on top of the usual flu n sore throat medicine. its not like im down with some bacteria infections. -.-" haiyo, eat my money. n now i gotta leave the antibiotics out.

well for your information, taking antibiotics when it is not necessary can be harmful. antibiotics are strong medicine which kills the bacteria in you. however, if u take antibiotics unneccessary, it can actually kills the good bacteria in you body thus causing ur immunity system to be low. n besides tat, antibiotics do not cure flu, colds, sore throat nor cough. if u did start on a course of antibiotics, please do finish the whole course n not leave one or two tablets behind just because you think you have recovered from your illness. because, having incomplete consumption of antibiotics dosage can cause the bacteria in your body to mutate, making them even more resistant to this antibiotics that you are taking. so if you were to take this particular antibiotics next time, it may not be as effective anymore.

haha ya. im suffering now. i cant seemed to breathe well. deprived of oxygen....... T_T

2006-11-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

-juz a random entry-

we were in sec 3 then. on our way home aft going through the long n tiring but fun n enjoyable OBS course.

2 years ago. i cant stand it. cheng's toilet bowl is spoiling the picture. i rmb us talking bout it. lols!

i was browsing thru my photos n i came upon these 2. hahs, we all looked so different now as compared to 3 yrs ago. meiyue, fele, cheng n me. the usual 4 when we're in secondary school. super missed those times when we laughed, played, joked, cry, serious, eat, shit together especially during band days. thinking back, there were really loads of fun memories. hanging out at mac aft band, gossipping n laughing our heads out, playing catching at ginza, sometimes not being serious when we fall-in, getting scolded or punished by seniors, going through the hard times together n even, having the same shitting system. lol! i cant believe it, meiyue n i used to have super fast digesting system whereby we'll always be in the toilet straight aft we had our meals. hahas.

well, time passed really fast. we are all growing old. in few months' time we will all be turning 20. T_T hahas.

2006-11-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

what will my future be? how will i plan my route after graduation? work or study?

these questions have been popping out in my mind even more often ever since Ben Yang and Adrian Yeo started talking to us on further studies to get a degree. indeed, i do have alot of factors to consider for both routes. my future, my interest, how long am i going to take, n even to support my family. a few of my relatives have been telling me, being the eldest, i've to share a part in financing the family aft i stepped out to the working society. i've to shoulder part of the responsibility my parents are shouldering now. as i took all these factors into my consideration, i began to realised money is indeed hard to earn. whatsmore, how much can a fresh polygraduate earns? $1500. minus off CPF will be $1200. To support the family n myself, i've to minus off even more. thinking of these, i'm beginnning to see nightmares. Now i understand y parents' earned-money are said to be hard-earned n y my mum always asked me to save money. -.-"

but because of these, i've roughly set out my plans. its juz a matter of time for me to achieve them. the route seemed tough. sometimes i do wish i can juz be a tai tai, sitting at home, going shopping and gossiping with friends, go spa, do facial, enjoying every relaxing moments without the fear of having financial prob. hahs. well, i might as well hope to find a treasure box somewhere in a deserted place n live off with it or i can juz pray hard for money rain to come. wouldnt tat solve every and any problem? yea, fat hope.

coincidentally, most of my classmates are facing the same problem as me. all claiming no money to further studies. lols. everyone's planning to work first before getting a degree. a class of 16, minus off 3 guys who will be going NS, minus off a bonded student to NHC, minus off 4-6 people who are planning to work elsewhere, tat will give a number of 6-7 fresh graduates of cardiac tech searching for jobs in cardiology departments. @.@ wonder if there are enough vacancies to accomodate all of us. *shruggs*

my mum asked me this qns. "what is your field of interest? what do you wan to further studies on?" i think once, twice. n told her. "well, getting a degree on biomedical science is for the purpose of getting a job. on the other hand, i have interest in music too. i've tot of studying music aft i completed my piano grades. but this is purely for my interest. purely to study for the fun of it." my mum had no reply to that. all she gave me was, "juz go with your interest." i was shocked when she told me tat. because for the past, she's been pressing on me to excel on becoming a doctor. -.-" i was like, "oh c'mon, juz because my cousin is studying on these kinda stuffs doesnt mean i've to be the same." some parents juz wan to appear to have a 'higher face value' among relatives and friends for that.

anywae, i shan't digress further. if not, there wont be any end to it. its alrdy a loonngg entry. hahs.

2006-11-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

oh great. what can be greater than having to post ur nicely typed out entry and with juz a click on the 'Publish Post' button, it appeared with a 'The Page Cannot Be Found' screen. Everything's gone in that crucial click! *claps*

argh. don wanna retype my previous entry. -.-"

2006-11-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

Problems. how do u exactly define problems? dictionary.com states tat a problem refers to any question or matter involving doubt, uncertainty and difficulty.

i believe everyone of us has our own individual problems. im not exceptional. sometimes i juz felt its kind of tiring to be faced with the same problem over and over again. i don like the feeling of having to sacrifice my passion and interest because the root of the problem hadnt been solved. i juz don get it. y does some pp juz wouldnt face similar problem as me? watsmore, i juz don feel its right. instead of trying to solve this crucial problem, it feels as though there are avoidance to it. watever it is, however way we wanted it to be, it will never turn out to be a child's wish. the parents have the say. always. tats the frustrating part.

how far can one's passion and interest go when there is such a major obstacle? sometimes i have doubts to it. i even think twice or even thrice if i should give up and let go. i am utterly disappointed. i do believe as long as the passion continues to burn strongly, there will always be a way to it. however, i have doubts with my determination. may my determination keep my belief strong. i hope..

2006-11-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

yeah!! i've finished goong finally. to tink, im kinda outdated alrdy since peirong has long past tat getting-so-fascinated period. lols. but.. its really a nice show! =D i shld say, this is my 2nd show tat i've gone sooooo fascinated bout it. the OSTs are great. becoz of them, it did make my tears flow. and, i juz love Shin! so mesmerized by him. lols. actually, its a tough choice between Shin n Yul (both are good-looking =X).

well, look at this..

aint these bear bear cute?? >.<

saw xc's blog had this too.
wat a happy ending. so sweet.. =)

2006-11-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

Cheng's last rondeau's over. it will be my turn soon. hahs, tinking of it.. it did mean tat it will be my last time playing trumpet le. (anywae, cheng gotta love tat sylvester balloon alot. its cute anywae. haha. =P)

anywae, met up wif dear aft tat. n we went searching high n low for eski bar. -.-" walked frm raffles, to clarke quay, to somewhere i donno n finally found it. *mygod* i bet my legs had stepped on more than a million of lemons. n well, its a nice n cozy place i shld say, wif a big screen for pp to watch soccer. hehs. n i got myself a cup of rum wif fruit punch. nice =)

__________________________________________________________

n i was stunned when i saw this email.

zhi hui

Just dropping a note to say that I think your quiz is not too bad at all. Continue to strive hard and you may even better your grade! all the best!

Yours Sincerely
Benjamin Yang Cheng Woi
Lecturer, Biomedical Sciences
School of Chemical and Life Sciences
Singapore Polytechnic. Tel: (65) 6879 0474. Rm: T11A510.

i tink ben yang had really nth better to do. maybe i tink too much, but if we were to read between lines for this email, it did sound like i did kind of badly for my quiz n he was juz merely trying to encourage pp. *oh no* =/

2006-10-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

i love this song. =)

anywae, i've gotten myself vaccinated with Hepatitis B antibodies. i've got a super low count for it. 2.35 IU/L when its supposed to be more than 100 IU/L to be considered as being protected. -.-" super pathetically low rite. hahas. (btw, i hate needles)

n ya. whilst blogging, i fell down juz now. >_< frm my chair. hahas. i was leaning back to look at wat my mum was doing n darn it, my floor was uneven so when the wheels rolled out to tat 'popped out' tile, it got stuck n rolled inwards. i fell on my butt. -.-" boohoo!

2006-10-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

i donno wat is molto tranquilo. n there goes my 2 marks. -.-"

reached MDIS in the morning n was quite shocked with the number of pp taking exams. i mean, young children actually. they were all almost primary sch students or even younger. all hugging their theory books tightly, rushing through for a last minute revision. stressful life they had. so many exams to handle. =/

n there's this lil boy sitting in front of me, taking the same grade paper as me. we were given 2 hours for it. i finished at the first hour, n during this one whole hour, half of the time this lil boy was singing out a passage whilst staring hard at his paper tinking of wat to compose for the rest of the 6 bars. i was like.. -.-" its kinda disrupting la. watsmore, he's humming the same tune over n over again. i almost wanted to ask the invigilator to ask him tone down abit. well, lucky i finished earlier than him. if not i would hav to suffer. =/ hahs.

ok, alumni meeting was kinda making me looking more forward to the camp where highlights are on the night trail. seemed abit like wat spsu had done before. horribly ghostly. esp the idea martin gave. eeelll.. *chills*

6 more days.

2006-10-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

wish me good luck.

theory exam tml. jia you!

pre-fieldcamp miss..
day 1 tml.
don wan dear to fall ill during field camp since he've juz recovered.

y cant hp be brought along during field camp?

boohoo!! =(

2006-10-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

saw tat pic? don u all feel heart-pained for me? hahas..

well, this is a blue black i got frm my immuno practical. it was supposedly to be an interesting prac coz we were trying to find out whether if the amount of Hepatitis B antibodies is more or less in our blood sample.

so i volunteered my right hand for vahidha to take blood. -failed-

then i volunteered my left hand for her again coz mr woo said its alright to take frm tat particular vein. n guess wat? i din expect tat vahidha's needle actually went in quite slowly, causing the blood to back flow instead of flowing into the tube. juz a few seconds later, tat whole area swelled up. i was like @_@!!! she got panic too n pull the needle out, supposedly hav to place a gauze to cover the open wound before drawing the needle out, blood came spurting out 2-3 times. -.-

upon seeing both times were unsuccessful, mr woo came to take my blood. i told him, "huh, i've got no veins left for u to take, u sure can take ah?" he told me calmly, yes. n when his needle went it, it was extremely painful. its not those pain u get when the needle's in. its more of he had poked onto my tendon n muscles those kind of pain. my god. n there's no blood either. i was told tat he was moving the needle ard trying to search for the vein. no wonder the pain doesnt goes away!! lucky i din see any of tat. if not, i'll really faint on the spot. hahs, so i told him its really really painful before he started to pull the needle out.

wat a day. i couldnt get any blood out despite 3 times of being poked. hen yuan wang leh.. im so disappointed! -.-"

2006-10-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

i was in one of the cubicles in the sch library's toilet when i overheard some stuffs todae.

A: aiyo, how am i supposed to put this on??
B: how come?
A: im weaing g-string loh. n she gave me this. how am i supposed to stick it on?
B: errr...
A: somemore im wearing skirt.
B: well, worse still later still gotta sit down.
A: precisely. shit la, i come out u help me see if there's any stain.

well, not tat im being bad eavesdropping pp's conversation but they were speaking too loudly, or rather the toilet's kinda quiet.

when i came out frm the cubicle, i saw the ger wearing a white tube dress. good luck to her sia, i juz cant imagine having period, wearing g-string n somemore its a white skirt.

n i juz don understand, surely she knoes roughly when her period is coming wat. still go act-smart wear white dress, watsmore wif a g-string. -.-" i was like 'my god, don u hav brains? u wore tat white dress wif g-string urself n u're complaining about the pad n tat u'll stain ur clothes.'

-duh- *shakes head*

2006-10-15T18:19:00.000+08:00

to talk about SALE, singaporeans will always be up-to-date bout it. be it clothes sale, food sale etc. n whenever there is a SALE goin on, u'll nv see the queue being short at all. pp wouldnt even mind standing under the hot, scotching sun for hours juz to get the saled items. -.-"

well, i've juz been to one todae. ice cream sale. at KING'S factory. they were having their factory sale n my god, i arrived there with my piano tcher, we had to start queueing from the gate of it. the queue was so long tat it extended out frm the factory's gate all the way til 2-3 factories beside it. but i don deny, the ice creams were really really cheap. one waffer ice cream for $0.20. one cone ice cream(like cornetto) for $0.60. tat explained the long queue.

n the efficiency rate was low. i nearly fainted frm low blood pressure whilst standing for too long coz i hadnt had my breakfast nor my lunch and it was 1pm at tat instant. we waited for 45mins before its our turn to take order. because of this long queue, ms goh n i decided to buy more. to compensate. lol! so i had 2 boxes of mochi, one tub of rum n raisins, 24 waffer ice cream(in a carton) and 10 coned ice cream(supposedly to be 20 in a carton, i shared wif ms goh). hahs, ms goh had even more than me with 2 extra tubs of chocolate chip and cookies n cream. hahas!

however, it was kind of heavy to drag the yummy stuffs home. thank god, ms goh's husband was wif us. so i went wif them to her hse n frm there i took a bus home. =/

p/s: on the other hand, im starting to get broke-er n broke-er. temptations are really hard to resist. >_<

2006-10-13T14:56:00.000+08:00

2 days ago, my com juz undergone a big crisis. n now, its partially recovered. though sometimes there will still be this irritating window popping out, "VIRUS DETECTED..."

cause of it? my sis told me she was dl-ing msn emoticons, said they looked innocent to her. n ended up dl-ing the virus together wif it. -.-" i nearly had a heart attack when i cant open my ie nor sign in to msn. i guess my hse was nearly flooded by my cold sweat coz i've got an assignment to be sent which is due ytd 11.59pm. (ok, i was being exaggerative. lols.) but hey! it was scary ok.

thanx to wenhong, helped me cleared some of it. at least, i can open my ie n sign in to msn. hahs. but often or not, there will still be "VIRUS DETECTED..." window coming out.

goodness, im still suffering frm virus-phobia whenever i online.

i seriously hate virus. esp when i know nuts bout them, which left me staring blankly and helplessly at my com when its being infected.

im a virus noob. -.-"

2006-10-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

Green Forest, My Home <--- *thumbs up*

William

Sophie

Owen

Susan

they are the 4 main characters for Green Forest, My Home. A taiwanese drama serial. my god, im so addicted in it now. especially being addicted to Ethan Ruan. =) he is sooooo shuai!!! ^_^

shuai rite! shuai rite!!
i juz love the smile on his looks. *melted*

well anywae.. whichever show has got a shuai ge will always be a good show to me. haha! (typical girl)
=P

2006-10-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

happy post-mid-autumn festival!

well, i felt this yr's zhong qiu jie was better than last yr for me. i still rmb last yr my bday fell on this festive day itself n clashed wif the semester exams when everyone's busy mugging. how sad.

to celeb this yr's lantern festival, shir suggested go merlion park to carry lanterns. so aft the UCC performance ytd, we went to makan sutra to had our supper. by the way, i felt conned when i got the stingray. it cost 10bucks n half of it was chao ta-ed. argh. so aft our supper, we (shir, lt, jiehong n me) went to light up our lanterns n we walked frm esplanade to merlion park.

hahs well, u may think its weird to carry lanterns in places like the esplanade. however, there are actually many other pp doing the same as us. there were even pp carrying battery-dependent lanterns. im juz kind of shock tat despite the hazy weather, it hadnt dampened the festive mood in everyone.

n u may tink its childish to carry lanterns for pp our age. but, hey! we were juz reviving our childhood moments ok. hahs, its been such a long time since we last touched lanterns. but its fun actually. the lanterns were pretty too. =)

aft we reached the merlion park, we settled down, played sparkles n chit chat. was kind of disappointed tat there were only the 4 of us when a few others agreed to come initially flied our aeroplanes in the end. so the determined liting die oso wan to drag someone out to play wif us, n jiehong happened to be the victim. hahs.

the haze was really really bad. so bad tat, we felt like we werent in singapore but in a hot genting.

well nevertheless, it was a fun nite.. =D

p/s: its really hazy. i don like. made me don feel like going out at all. argh.

2006-09-28T17:29:00.000+08:00

i learnt smth interesting during basic pathology today.

Oxygen can be deadly when they are in their reactive state. It can oxidised the DNA strand in our body cells and causes it to be damaged. Oxidised DNA will thus cause aging to occurs.

so every now and then, our DNA stands are always being oxidised. Which explains why we are aging.

solutions?
take anti-oxidant drugs.

tats wat Ben Yang said.

p/s: i love pathology. its interesting. =D

2006-09-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to zhihui..
happy birthday to me!

thanx all who've wished me happy birthday. however, this special day of mine seemed like any normal day to me. guess everyone's busy wif their fyp ba..? shruggs. n i don hav a birthday cake. -.-"

well, watever it is. i shall juz make a birthday wish in front of an imaginary birthday cake.

*wishwishwishwishwish*

may my wish come true. =)

2006-09-17T18:58:00.000+08:00

16th Sept 2006
had been to town for countless of times in the day but being in town in the middle of the nite all the way til dawn, when everything was so calm and peaceful without the hustle life in the day, was definitely nice. its like for once, u can see its busy pace settling down.

its been such a long time since the 4 of us ever met up. i mean, having the 4 of us being present. its like since when? one yr ago when we got together to celebrate our birthdays at marina. yea, all still looked the same to me except tat we are all getting old! n speaking of old, i tot we could hav a decent meet-up aft all these times. tot we had grown out of the accidents-prone situations. but, nevertheless i tink we juz couldnt avoid it, somehow. -.-" meiyue! broke a glass of water in tcc. my god, it was loud and sudden. hahs, for tat instant we were all staring at the shattered glass quietly n stunned and we burst out laughing aft a few seconds.

smile!

we still looked the same.

this is meiyue

oh great! im wearing a helmet! lol din know its so tight. >_<

watched a 1140pm show in cine - John Tucker Must Die. a comedy. ended the show at 1am plus and meiyue left us for malaysia to top her bike's fuel. we were supposed to proceed to changi to see ah gua but instead we rotted in town coz we were too lazy to go. so we went to the kopitiam juz beside cine for a chat. cheng n me were almost half dead. i had work and she had training in the day. hadnt had enuf slp n now.. fele was the only one who hadnt gotten tired a single bit.

look at our shagged-ed-ed faces. we were so tired aft a long day's work!!

there she is, slurping her jia jia liang teh n complaining it sucks.

see. wan to act cool only. dots.

but i don wan.

cheng n fele

poor cheng, getting scolded by felicia yap.

n being squeezed by my finger. lols!

we rocks!

did i mention aft this whole long nite, i've still got work the next day? no i didnt. n its at 8am! so i went to the clinic wif my puffy eyes n heavy body. din slp the whole nite!! lucky no patients died frm the medicine i dispensed. haha!

p/s: dear juz called n i got a birthday song frm him. yeah! so happy to hear his voice. but it did sore abit. =/

2006-09-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

everyone has 24hours a day.
no more no less.
i felt like mine seemed longer this whole wk.
there's still another week yet to come.
if only i could manipulate the time.
i'd definitely turn the hands of the clock til the time i see u again.

it really feels so empty without your presence.
for my every day,
i'll always be anticipating to ans ur call.
it's tat average 15mins of talk
that brightens up my day.
the smile, the up-lifted mood, the happy zhihui,
can all be seen frm tat single call.

i cant stop myself frm having images of u.
they were all flooding in my mind.
yes, i really miss u so
so much..

sometimes i juz wish time can be in the control of our hands.

2006-09-13T14:59:00.000+08:00

as usual, i've always had lots of mixed feelings and thoughts aft looking at my results. when my friends got their results, their reactions will always be, "haiz, my results so bad. gpa so low. how to get into uni? confirm cannot go liaox la. other pp all get so many distinctions. so sians." but whenever i asked them how much they got for their gpa, its always higher than me. so in fact, who will be the one who's feeling more down and disappointed in the end?

i wanted to try to cheer them up but i juz cant bring myself to it when the words i consoled them hav nv once successfully consoled myself before. the problem lies in me which i donno where the root is. no matter how hard i tried to study i'll always hav an average C grade for the module. its like once being defeated by my results, my confidence shook a little. so much so til now, i've nv for once hav confidence during exams anymore. in my way of doing things, im one who usually give up aft a few times things do not turn out right. yea, im a lazy bummer, im not a determined person, i don take my studies seriously, i give things up easily when things don work out right for me. i agree. but where has the fire tat burns strongly in me gone to? the drive in me is not there, i've got no motivation starting frm the beginning of my poly life til now.

now, pp always tell me the same thing. "nvm la, u still got ur last semester. work hard and u'll definitely be able to do much better. sure can one la don worry." its not one person, but all whom i've confided my emotions, my thoughts and my results to. n its not like i've nv worked hard. but the results werent fruitful. kind of disappointed in myself. stupid me. i guess i needed a more stronger console which can hit a greater impact in me.

sometimes i juz feel so lost.

2006-09-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

need me only when u need someone to cover for u? told me not to work when u don need me at all? wats all these bullshits when initially u said u need me to help u work for the whole of september when now im juz only NEEDED for tuesdays, thursdays and fridays? tink im 24hrs available? my foot.

to decide when im needed for work is that one sentence frm u as n when u like whereas to take leave when im not well or unavailable is not granted at all. showing me the bloody look on ur face when u tot i've gotten another job instead. u even wan to bloodily cut off the 2hours in the aftnoon session, asking me not to work instead. damn it. i felt like a sucker working foolishly for u. wat a promising person u are. THINK FIRST before u tell me u need pp to help u work for tat month.

so much for all the studying thruout your years. to think that u're a doctor. who doesnt use your brains but instead of ur ass to tink.

well done.

2006-09-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

i was told to go home search for works by the GREAT composers such as Beethoven, Mozart, Bach etc aft my lesson. it was to prepare me for my next theory grade as wat ms goh said. n indeed, they were GREAT composers with GREAT numbers of works as said by peirong. i was -.-" oh-my-god. i've always hated history becoz of all the memorising part n now i've to study history of music. great. im so happy. my results coming out in end of sept and i'm having a paper in late oct, pray hard i get good results for both.

n i got a bad news frm ms goh. she said the cc juz implemented this rule - the piano course offered here is only for 18 years and below. i was like, -.-" wat the..? does this mean tat i hav to stop piano? argh. so she was explainin tat it was juz a safeguard to prevent males frm signing up for this course not for the sake of learning piano but instead of some other u-know reasons. coz my tcher is a female, so its kind of endangering herself to male students. or rather, horny male students. lol. coz this kind of situation once happened to ms goh before in the previous cc i went a long time ago when she was still unmarried and had to left the cc in the end. she then said tat the cc told her it was PM Lee who implemented this idea. which i donno if its true or not la.

well watever la. its kind of lame shit loh. n juz so suay, im one of the two students in tat cc who happened to be over 18. the rest of the students above 18 were all taking private wif ms goh. (well, for ur info, private are more expensive than cc. >_<) however, she assured me tat she'll try to find her niece or nephew who is eligible to register n i'll take tat slot in the name of the 18-years-old-n-below identity. wat a stupid rule indeed. crap!

11 more days.

2006-09-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

ytd nite,
dear: will u cry tml?
me: i donno. wat if i cry?
dear: don cry la. im juz entering another phase of my life. no need to cry de.
me: -pause a moment- orh ok.
dear: promise me don cry k?
me: -nod my head-

but when the ferry left tekong for singapore todae, i felt my heart weighed a few more tonnes. esp aft i bid farewell to deardear. so fast. time really past so fast. frm the day he got his enlistment letter til now. i guess tats how every gers felt when their bf enlist ba. nevertheless, i fulfilled my promise. i din cry. =) im still lookin forward to his book out day n seeing his botak head in 2 weeks time!! hahahas.

on the other hand, it was my first visit to tekong. the place was really nice, as to wat alot of pp had commented, as if going chalet. still got a recreational room for them where they can watch tv, slack on sofa, listen radio, play billard or table tennis or even board games, n it is air-conditioned! hahs, but aiya who knoes maybe these are all juz for show only since its opened up to parents today. shruggs? the food in the canteen were quite good. not very lork cok but rather its nice!

anywae, its so weird to see deardear offline in the nite. hahs. things are changing n i gotta adapt to this life soon. no dear except 10pm on phone. so sad. i believe, 2 weeks will be over shortly, very soon.

i miss you.

2006-09-02T15:57:00.000+08:00

frm my experience, i concluded that all employers are bad. especially doctors.

worked in 2 clinics before, both doctors are as equally stingy as each other. one is a dentist, one is a general practitioner. scrooges they must be? almost.

Similarities
- appear to be generous, kind.
- seemed to treat employees well. (bullshit)
- smile at u often.
- don allow u to take leave even when u hav urgent stuffs
- both are doctors
- wore specs
- earn big money! i really mean big. 10k at least per mth.
- under-pay u n make it sound like they're alrdy paying a good salary.
- they can be backstabbers.
- sack u as and when they wished.
- treat u good when u're of use to them. get rid of u once ur usefulness are being sucked dry, as easy as flicking away the nose shit on ur finger.

Differences
- one is a dentist, one is a GP.

glad i've quitted the dental clinic. tot i've found a better GP clinic. but im wrong again. couldnt hav been more glad to tok to joanne todae. at least i got things clearer and better.

wouldnt u be angry if u're getting $7 when u can actually get $10 per hour? wouldnt u be angry when u could have done tat earlier rather than worked for 9 mths and realising it? wouldnt u be angry when u're worked for so long and still remained as $7 per hour, taking into considerations tat u'd be paid higher in other clinics? wouldnt u be angry when the doc juz don allow u to take ONE day off when someone so beloved n closed to u passed away n u're not feeling well tat day? wouldnt u be angry when u were told u may juz be sacked coz u're leaving work earlier than usual(1hr earlier) to go msia?

definitely u will be angry.

this is one incident i'll definitely not forgive the doctor. he wouldnt let me take one nite off, which means 2 hours only, few mths ago coz im really not feeling well, sick, worn out and emotionally unstable for the loss of my ah ma. i flared up n quarrelled wif one of the patients tat nite, i still rmb, who started quarrelling wif me FIRST. its not like not working for tat 2 hours he will die of hunger frm moneyless. crap.

discussed wif peirong. our plans are still in progress. hopefully can get jieying out too if nth was done to our pay. like wat pr has or i hav said, i can bring in pp to the clinic, i can bring them out too.(haha, i sounded so bad.)

the battle is starting soon. gambatthe peirong! we'll fight it out together.

2006-08-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

brought good news for myself this morning. i.e i passed my basic theory test! yeah!! hahas happy happy. was having cold sweat n hesitating to press 'end-test' button when i completed all the qns. was juz so afraid to see the word 'FAILED' popping out. lols. nevertheless, i passed. =D

todae rained whole day. wat a nice weather to rot on bed. so i went home to catch abit of sleep aft lunch and headed out to shufen's hse for steamboat n to celebrate ruiwen n mimi's birthday. coz jieying was late due to work, we gotta wait til 8pm before we started eating. zzz. hahs, anywae.. happy birthday to ruiwen n mimi!

8am work tml. Dr See Toh really scared i'll wake up late or i'll forget tat im working tml, told peirong to remind me. lols, im not so bad in my memory loh. dots. -.-"

2006-08-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

im so glad tat in the midst of my boring life, i'll always hav someone to gear my mood up. or rather, i know he's always there and i'll always hav him around. enjoyed myself truely on the trip to msia todae. juz cant stop laufing whenever i see tat retarded photo of him. haha!

i juz love my dear, so much. =)

2006-08-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

im so irritated by the boredom im facing now. its 26th August 2006. wonder how am i going to survive til 24th Sept. worst still, whenever i tot of 7th Sept, my mood will be dampened. =(

this is so far the longest holidae i'll be having since aft itp ended. im trying to get a temp job but come to tink of it, which employer will hire an employee for only one mth? (don bother to introduce sales job to me. i simply hate tat.) its a good thing band is starting next wk. at least it will keep me occupied for 2 nights per wk.

plus, the weather these days had been superly terribly HOT! im someone who doesnt sweat much yet every night i cldnt slp in peace because of the heat. argh.

anywae, todae is dad's birthday.
Happy Birthday Papa!

2006-08-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

hey. i tot this is interesting..

PM Lee's Rally Speech

i find it funny.. hahs!

2006-08-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

ok, this picture is small, but i've got a bigger one here

tot of sharing smth interesting wif u guys. this picture hadnt had anything done to it. its genuine. believe it or not its up to u.

this was a pic taken by my classmate in NHC. at tat pt of time we had finished our lecture and the gers (including me) were discussing bout our class chalet's stuffs in the LT. n our topic changes frm planning of games to visiting of the red house in the middle of the chalet nite. n soon, we were all toking bout our experiences and watever we know bout the other world. we werent aware tat our picture was taken, n we were 100% sure there wasnt anything white in front of us when we were toking. so, it was when my friend was checking his photos on his phone then he realised bout the white thingy standing beside christina (the one in orange tshirt).

one thing to add on - NHC was juz beside the mortuary. so we were speculating tat, this might juz be a 'passer-by' who happened to heard wat we were saying.

unbelievable? i don believe it myself, initially, tat im actually in tat picture. i told my dad, expecting some comforting words frm him but he juz gave me a shrugg, walked away and said, "some things are beyond our explanations." how helpful. -.-"

well, this happened quite a few mths ago when im still having attachment. aft tat, there hadnt been any such pictures when we took shots in the LT.

2006-08-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

dim lights
loud music
smoke
alcohol
guys & gers
dance floor

first visit to MOS ytd nite. wif dear n his friend and friends. it was expected, as wat my friends had told me bout how clubbing life was like. but the no. of pp was kind of less than wat i expected for a wednesday night. probably exams? probably schooling. shruggs. i quite like tat place, was nice. ok i don deny the toilet was great.(as in the outlook of it) haha! the chairs were comfy. especially the one, rounded shape, like a swing hanging down frm the ceiling at the i donno where tat place was. retro i guess? i quite like the everything of it, except the loud music. i guess i still need some time to get use to those kind of loud music.

n i realised ever since there's an age restriction to either movies or places, i've always got a problem wif tat. when im 16, i couldnt watch NC16 shows unless i got to show my ic. when im 18, sometimes i was asked to show my id too. n now, im 19. i'm still suspected not to be someone who's 19yrs old when im caught at the entrance.

the guy: ic? (i gave him my ic. his head kept shifting frm my ic pic to my face several times)
disbelieved,
the guy: smile? (ok i smiled n he gave me an i-don-believe look)
the guy: wats ur blood group?
me: A+ (he looked at my ic. stil not convinced.)
the guy: do u hav any other identification pass?
me: yea. (i gave him my ezlink n he gave me a frowning look.)
me: do u need other id? i've still got.
the guy: -no reply-

hahs, n he asked me to proceed in. true wat, all my id photos looked almost the same. all wif specs but im not wearing specs at tat moment. i don blame if he don believe tat specs ger in the id was me. i don looked like im 19 meh??? tsk.

shruggs watever. this shows im still young. yeah! hahas. anyway, it was a new experience for me. =)

2006-08-13T16:45:00.000+08:00

because im having holidays now, i tot i could get off to some nearby countries for leisure. but im wrong, dad disallow because of the lunar 7th mth. so because of this, i told him to let me go msia to shop for a day w/o spending the nite there. he din gif me any ans. i assumed a yes. went wif dear to city sq. was quite a 'leg-stepped-on-lemons' day aft walking the whole of tat building. hahs! got myself 2 tops n some tidbits for my sis whereas dear got his hair cut, his top n his bag.

seeing him cut his hair, it urged me even more to hav a hair cut too. my hair is getting longer n becoming more of zha cao. -.-" i shall visit collin some time next or next next wk. haven been to her salon for snip-snip for months.

there is a malay wedding held at my void deck today. quite a big malay crowd. the place was oso decorated very well and the food smelt nice when i walked past! hahs, but one thing i don understand. why do malays held their wedding at void deck instead of restaurants? izzit because that is their practice?

2006-08-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

today marks the end of my whole attachment journey. yes no doubt i've finished my attachment 3weeks ago, today i finished the last paper of my exams. yeah! cant be happier than this. hahs. *grinns* so im now left wif 1 and a half mth of holidays before im back in sp completing my last semester. kinda eager to go back sp though, coz i juz missed the feeling of being able to skip lessons w/o the need to get mc (i mean, if when i overslept =x)

How i spent the last few weeks:
- itp
- exams
- rushing my case studies (tat explained how busy i were)
- IBM 24 (my last ibm)
- yuanru's bday chalet

Some photos taken in NHC

our name tags

with our dear in-charge, Lata.

obscence! look at christina's expression. lol.

grace - one of the few staffs who taught us alot.

funny faces.

wat we hav to wear in CVL.

im squashed in tat trolley!

err..

the aunty so cute!

youling - another one who treats students well.

she's at fault!

they are the temps. the ones who allowed more than 2 students in a procedure room. lols

caught under the table reading 'Garfield'. hor hor!!

jieying giving a lecture..

jump!

minyu.. -.-"

hahs.

7-angled star.

IBM 24

cheers!

the 4 gers.

the yr 3s.

-wow-

shir n me

us

my dear dear =)

2006-07-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

take a look at this. a lil boy conducting Singapore Wind Symphony during a 'Beautiful Sunday' concert in esplanade..

interesting.
hahas..

2006-07-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

time passes really fast. its july now, n its bout time to start moving on..

one thing i wanna announce -- 9 MORE DAYS TO END OF ITP! yeah yeah!! hahas, one yr leh! itp for one yr W/O pay.. can die. almost reaching the pt of eating grass n drinking rain water. lol. im so really glad everything's coming to an end.. cant wait til 10th aug when im really freed. =D

for past few wks, i've been having probs sleeping. i'll tend to slp for 1 hr n get up for the next hr. its really irritating. somehow i juz cldnt get myself to fall into a decent slp. i asked my doctor, he said it maybe due to the loss of ah ma, tats y im having probs. some pp juz cldnt get over it so fast n they may tend to hav symptoms like this. im one of them. well, juz hope i'll be able to slp better now. at least, there are improvements now..

lastly, i love this flowers..

thanx dear.. =)

2006-06-20T11:26:00.000+08:00

"don come home too late.."

"look out for cars when u cross the road.."

i wouldnt be able to hear these again. my ah ma passed away on 11th june. alot of pp asked me whether im ok. yes, i am ok now but will of coz be sad. initially, i cldnt accept the fact that she had left us. everything come and passed so fast tat im not able to adapt to this new environment. she was diagnosed wif metastatic rectal carcinoma 2yrs ago. watever it is, its colon cancer. she spent bout 1wk plus in SGH aft which the doc told us her prognosis wasnt very optimistic n we had to be mentally prepared. it was also set for us to bring her home on 12/6/06 but she din make it. she was very awake 2 days before she left. none of us expected this to happen aft 2 urgent calls frm hosp. the maid was wif her 24hrs everyday even til she breathed her last. im really sad for her, she cldnt get to see any of her loved ones before she left. even my father who was the first to reach was also late by 10mins.
=(

whenever i looked into her bedroom, vivid flashes of the past will come into my mind. she's an able and well-respected woman when she's alive. the kitchen was her 2nd home and all of us love her cooking. be it juz simple porridge, it will always taste nice. for this 19yrs of my life, i've lived wif her under the same roof together wif my family. most of the household chores were done by her, even the job to take care of my 2sisters and i were oso by her. she brought us to school, to tuition, to void deck for old folks gossiping session and to see doc when we were ill. aft my ah gong passed away, ah ma fell ill and had a stroke. it was til 2yrs ago she had colon cancer. these 6 yrs indeed had been hard for her esp tat particular 2 yrs which she had to suffer in pain, fighting against the disease.

ah ma never failed to always asked how were we when we fell ill. i could still rmb juz few mths ago, i had a really bad cough. at tat time ah ma was kind of weak and was lying on her bed resting. she even made the effort to ask my sis to call me to her room juz to place her hand over my forehead to see whether i have any fever despite herself already being so sick and weak. she still cares.. it really pains my heart to see her go.

maybe my mum was right. at least ah ma wouldnt hav to suffer in pain anymore. she had gone to somewhere painless and she still had her husband to keep her company. she might be happier now. if ah ma is happy, i'll be happy for her.

now, the funeral was over. i'm trying to get back to my life again. sorry to the people whom i've neglected during this period of time, even my classmate oso noticed i've become so quiet suddenly. thnx to those who've came to pay ah ma their last respect. esp dear, who listened to my cries over the phone, consoling me n being there when i need someone most. =)

its really heartbreaking to see ur loved ones leave u and sometimes it is juz so difficult to say good bye.

farewell ah ma, u'll always be in my heart..

2006-06-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

anyone jobless?

i've got a full-time job lobang..

working in a clinic, decent pay..

tell me if u're interested.

2006-06-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

few days ago, i was scheduled to do echo in the aftnoon. this particular patient was called to do an echo on heart by a cancer doctor. she had lung cancer. in her case sheet showed a few echo reports which she had done quite recently. the most recent one was done one mth ago. nth much was found in the heart except a small foreign mass growing near her left ventricle.

n yet, i actually witnessed smth peculiar.

wendy was moving the probe along the left side of the chest n saw a tumor occupying the size of 2 atriums. my god. it was huge! the doctor deduced that this tumor actullay grew frm the outside of the heart into the atrium.

this wasnt exactly my point. wat im trying to convey was tat, virus is scary isnt it? to think tat within this one mth, a tumor can actually grew til this big. anything can juz happened to the patient anytime anywhere.

im juz pretty much amazed by how drastic damages a small virus can cause. its amazing, but its scary. real scary.

besides, ah ma juz got admitted into hospital. im really afraid of alot of things. i juz hoped n prayed everything goes smoothly again. please, let it be.

2006-05-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

hi. im back again..

juz a short update on wat i've been on for the past few weeks..

- attachment
- fo camp
- dear's birthday
- attended a wedding dinner at Mt Faber (romantic =) )
- watched MI3
- Echo hands-on session at NHC
- went to support cheng n peee for their PNC concert
- band

though it doesnt seem to be alot but yet indeed an amt of things happened during this period of time where i stopped blogging for a moment. one of the few significant ones were tat sweden trip was cancelled as it was too ex. well, tats kind of disappointing. cldnt hav the chance to go overseas wif my friends. =(

next, was the echo hands-on session. was really interesting to actually practise having the probe placed on our own chest to look at our heart. echo couldnt hav been more interesting til when we actually do it on ourselves. hahs. i hav a normal heart. =)

lastly, was the PNC concert ytd. hahas, i will nv forget cheng's 'OMG-u-bitch-!' expression when i passed her the bouquet of flowers wif a super duper ugly plastic bag (those tat u used to carry when u go market hahas *sense of accomplishment* yeah! =D

2006-04-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

BCLS photos were up!

this is the handsome man who was being kissed by our whole class.. 'handsome'

whoo! nice set of teeth.. lols.

infant CPR

one man CPR..

practising hard on compressing this handsome man's chest. -.-" its stiff k.. hard. =/

busy doing last min mugging before the theory paper

the real thing - practical test.

yeah! we're done wif it.. =D

2006-04-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

im back! aft MIA for so long. hahas. had better start cleaning up the cobwebs here before pp start to abandon my blog.. few things to highlight or rather are significant, since my last post.

prawn fishing
it was my 1st time to actually sit by the pond wif a rod n a bait, waiting for my targets to appear. n when i caught one, the feeling was great! hahas. n it was actually quite an achievement for a first-timer to catch 3 prawns in tat period of time. unlike someone (-cheng-), who claimed she had the biggest credit for helpin her darling wb look for hot spots n the float. -.-" yeah, big credit sia..! haha =P somemore this lazy zhu don wanna bbq the prawns, but rather she waits for pp to bbq for her. my god! slap u. hahs, but well.. juz a pity i told her the wrong place at which we went fishing. din had the chance to actually see wb caught TWENTY prawns in one rod. kaox. hao lian pi ah.. -.-" hahs so better don let me see wb on the streets.. if not im gonna smack him for suaning me so much tat nite. lols! yeah, shared the rod wif dear n he got 6prawns. yeah! happy can.. but one thing i find it rather eeks was the killing part of the prawns. -pain- to actually see them being poked thru the mouth wif a satay stick, soaked into salt water and then being bbqed. =/ well.. overall, i love tat nite.. fun!

fele
fele told me not to blog bout this coz its her chou shi. but since she told me NOT to, all the more i want to.. =D was supposed to meet her at outram to get stuffs. halfway thru walking to meet me, her slippers snapped n she cldnt walked at all. so i had to be the heroine for the day to save her aft my itp to lent her my shoes so she could shop ard chinatown for a decent pair. n she really took her time to stroll. i waited for her wif her low quality shoes at the bus stop for an hour plus. -.-" then she came back wif a $9.90 sandals, commenting tat she shldnt hav bought this pair coz there's very little friction. -.-" -smacks- nv tink before she buy de loh.. aiyoooo!

working
ended work at 945pm ytd due to alot of patients whereby the clinic shld be closed at 9pm instead. Dr See Toh as usual, likes to chat wif patients n take a really long time for each patient's visit. -.-" so he 'tu' loh.. 'tu' until 9pm le still got 7more patients. nts. ytd at 930pm, my brain was pronounced dead n i guessed i donno wat im doing at tat moment. was peeling off the medication's label frm the sticker itself so i could stick it to the medicine. by right, i shld throw away the back of the sticker aft peeling off the label, i threw the medicine away instead aft stickin the label to it. lols! i only realised it when the medicine landed in the dustbin. -.-" hahs was super funny actually when everything juz happened within tat split second. n unfortunately, peirong witnessed tat too. so i ended up being laufed at.. =/ hahs..

i guess tats bout it.. will update again soon. feeling rather tired le..
-yawns-

2006-04-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

toothache.

wisdom tooth creating havoc in my mouth.

its terribly pain..

=(

2006-04-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

1st April 2006
i met a 'weird-behaviour' or 'loose-screw' man in the morning at my doorsteps before i left for heart centre. totally freaked me out. my god! he was my nieghbour living upstairs. argh. i din believe he was pervertic which my family labelled him as until i saw wat happened wif my own eyes. damn it.

BCLS (basic cardiac life support) course was fun. err, or rather it got my hand wif bruises at the end of the day. i had blue black on my right hand. one-man cpr was stressful for me. or rather, its the compression part tats diff. coz the instructor said my body weight was too light tats y the compression i gave was too little. we had to press bout a depth of 4-5cm on adult's chest. i went over to another manikin to try n i succeed. so i concluded the 1st manikin i got was too stiff, too hard to be compressed (for me) hahas. mouth-to-mouth breathin was alrite, except tat i got my ulcer cracked when had to stretch the whole mouth over the manikin's mouth. my ulcer bled. -.-" i tot the manikin bled in the 1st place n was shocked to see blood stain on the face shield. hahas! ya so basically these are the highlights of wat happened. n i passed BCLS! yeah! im certified to perform cpr in valid for 2 years! lols. in fact the whole class were. =) hahs but we joked tat we'll only do mouth-to-mouth on patients/victims who are shuai. =X if its those old uncles, we shall juz pretend to walk away. lols. typical gers sia. hahs..

2006-03-31T15:55:00.000+08:00

baby heng or baby joshua (tats wat my tcher called her son) is cute! hahas. went over to ms goh's hse for lesson. n heard frm her tat, this lil baby loves music. everytime when ms goh's students were playing on the piano, he'll listen quietly. hahs, guess he had been used to the piano sounds for 9mths alrdy. he's really adorable can. single eyelids, sharp nose n those tiny hands and legs kicking at watever things he can try kicking. so was being updated by ms goh bout how the whole process of giving birth is like. lol, its almost like any normal drama serials. pain for few hrs, gif birth n then the first cry of the baby.

hahs, but wats most funny was tat, ms goh juz simply hated confinement period. she was superly duperly bored aft 3 whole wks of alot-cannots. no bathing, no drinking plain water, no fan, no going out, no this no that. n she began sms-ing all her students to disturb them, to ask them to come over for lessons whenever we are free so as to help her pass her confinement time. lols. so thru out the whole lesson, she was practically complaining. hahas. its kind of interesting to actually see ur tcher grumbling in front of u. n when i pass her the D.O.M + pressie, her eyes were super shocked n 'oh-no' when she saw tat bottle of D.O.M. she told me, "ahhh, oh my god. u juz added another bottle of misery on me. i've got alot of D.O.M alrdy!" hahas, i was like wah-lucky-i'm-not-the-one-receiving-these-D.O.M-bottles. lols. coz there's really ALOT of them n everytime she had to only drink a lil small cup of it. wonder how long she'd hav to take to finish all the bottles. hahaha!

2006-03-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

i've learnt a word frm the korean drama which i've been crazying on.

sarang hae yo

meaning..

i love you

=)

tat is actually wat i wan to say. sarang hae yo..

2006-03-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

Everlasting
BoA
(translated version)

The remaining snow on the roadside trees
Are blown away in the light
Even if im filled with pride or looking down at myself
I can't stop the seasons from changing
Just like pinky swearing
Or saying phrases like 'bye' or 'see you'
How can you forget these familiar gestures?
Are we headed to different futures?
If this farewell is the beginning of a journey
I'll smile as much as I can for you
Even the fact that we met and the streets we've walked
Will remain in our hearts
I'll never ever forget
Even if I open countless doors
It doesn't matter how far apart we are,
Our locked hands
Will never separate

I have to forget you even if I have to force myself
Or I won't be able to face the rest of my journey
As the train starts to move away from the platform,
You become small
When I was in pain, for my sake,
You told me it would be all right through my tears.
I will be stronger so I won't feel embarrassed
So promise me that our dreams will come true
My silent tears are
Pouring out of my heart but
I'll take a step forward without regrets
I'm sorry for your tenderness
Until I see you once again

Everlasting

If this farewell is the beginning of a journey
I'll smile as much as I can for you
Even the fact that we met and the streets we've walked
Will remain in our hearts
I'll never ever forget
Even if I open countless doors
It doesn't matter how far apart we are,
Our locked hands
Will never separate

2006-03-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

its 1pm now, which means its my mum's bday.

Mummy, Happy birthday!

bought an aromatherapy kind of thingy for her. hopefully it does help her in her concentration, more jing shen. =)

24th March, Friday
lay kian (one of the snr medical technologist in NHC)was supposed to gif us orientation on echo. she was superly diff frm the 1st time she briefed us bout NHC when we were still new to the place.

previously, she disallow us on numerous things:
- no v-shaped shirt or low cut shirt, afraid pat may get heart attack if we happen to bend too low.
- strictly no using of handphones. not even in vibration mode.
- muz tied up the hair

now, she told us another side of the story:
- v-shaped allowed juz not too exposed to the extent of wearing spag.
- usage of handphones allowed. but not in the presence of patients. but hav to turn to vibration mode
- tied half or full tie of the hair is fine.

n she wore contacts todae. plus, the tone she tok to us was nice n not fierce as she was last sem. hahs it juz feels so weird.

well, this sem's sort of more interesting. 'interesting' i mean. coz, we'll be having hands-on on echo (sao miao) on the heart. which means, we'll be doing echo on our classmates. n wat the whole procedure actually is, is to expose the top half of the patient's body n put the probe onto the chest lvl, at which the heart is to look at it. in other words, when we are doing our self-practice, we can only practise on our friends. meanging - we will be exposed to them! *shy can!* hahas. oh man. >_<

on the other hand, we'll be undergoing cpr course too. one day learn, on tat day test on theory n practical. >_< so fast. somemore it consist 20% of one of the modules. either u pass u get 20marks or u fail u get kosong straight away. -.-" hahas. but, not bad la. kinda interesting to actually learn how to perform cpr..

one more wk for me to play. aft which, the real work starts again.

2006-03-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

try reading this http://blog.yam.com/rainie/

it makes sense aftall. =)

2006-03-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

y are gers made to hav the habit of shopping? hahas.. well, i went town todae n got myself having to lengthen my shopping list again. but too bad, all i did juz now was to look only. n not to buy. so sad. hahas, even so if i got my pay this mth, i couldnt spend much either. i've still got a sweden trip to look forward to.. to spending money again. gotta save save save! but looking at the way i am, i guess its kinda hard.

so pp, pls stop me if u see me shopping unnecessarily.. hahas coz im usually tempted to this word - SALES. =P

results out tml. hoping to see As.. hopefully. *pray hard*

2006-03-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

this is for the alumni (unfortunately those under ms tan only, sorry) of TSMB.

Shuqi's sms:
Next sat (25/3/2006) 9am will hav alumni prac! Guess til noon. Doesnt matter if got prac, we're supposed to enjoy anywae. pass ard. thanx!

ya, to those who din get any sms frm anyone n hopefully u happened to read this.. alumni prac has started again. mrs oei had approved. no obligations in coming. come as n when u wish, but do at least make urself free to come once in awhile yeah. its not a must-come-every-sat thingy either. so yea, rest assured. =)

if u are interested, tell shuqi bout it k?
hopefully this time round things will turn out smoothly. =)

yeah, my piano tcher had given birth to a baby boy! hahas, which means i've no lessons on sundays for one mth! =D hahas, hehpi hehpi. at least i can be a lil more pig on sunday. hahas n i cant wait to see her baby boy's pic oso! =D

2006-03-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

if anybody had noticed, i had been online til quite late these few days. why? hahs, coz was chiong-ing my show. a korean love drama. "Sassy Girl, Chun-Hyang" it was definitely awesome! tat explained y i stayed up late juz to watch. it changed my impression on korean dramas (which i tink they are typical crying + crying shows), this was funny wif of coz touching and sad part.

i guess, probably tats the power of korean dramas. coz, i know my friends watched autumn's story, cried. watched winter sonata, cried. i don deny i did cry while watching this. its a typical love story whereby true love will always hav obstacles to make it stronger, n in it, there are hilarious scenes too.

wats more, the female lead is pretty. AND the male lead is really really cute! kawaii ^^ hees. err to me he is cute la. hehe, guess i'll be fa-hua-chi-ing these period of time. cant be help la, male lead so shuai so cool how to not fa hua chi rite. hahas. =D don believe me, i show u his pictures.

i juz love his innocent and naive look in the show. =P

tweese!

hmmm, i tink he looked cool-er in the show. =D

well, shall do a simple update nowadays.
- job hunting
- pia-ing my show
- went to watch Big Momma's hse 2 wif alvin
- got a 2-day job as a temp surveyor on Singapore Turf Club - Pools Branch. (sux totally. boring!)
- went swimming wif cheng n fele

photos!

cheng plus me

fele n me

spastic. hahas.

smiles =D

san bas 1, 2, 3!

2006-03-11T03:24:00.001+08:00

i tot this might be interesting..

Why Women Cry?

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?"

"Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said.

His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father,
"Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God.

When God answered, he asked,
"God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said:

"When I made the woman she had to be Special.
I made Her Shoulders strong enough
to carry the weight of the world,
yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave Her an Inner Strength
to endure childbirth
and the rejection
that many times comes from her children.

I gave Her a Hardness
that allows her to keep going
when everyone else gives up,
and take care of her family
through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave Her the sensitivity to Love her children
under any and All circumstances,
even when her child has Hurt Her Very Badly !

I gave Her Strength to carry her husband through his faults
and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her Wisdom to know
that a good husband Never Hurts his wife,
but sometimes tests her strengths
and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed.
This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God,
"the Beauty of a Woman is not
in the clothes she wears,
the figure that she carries,
or the way she combs her hair.

The Beauty of a woman must be seen in Her Eyes,
because that is the doorway to Her Heart - the place where Love resides."

true? hahas..

2006-03-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

遇见
孙燕姿

听见冬天的离开，我在某年某月醒过来，
我想，我等，我期待，未来却不能因此安排。
阴天，傍晚，车窗外，未来有一个人在等待，
向左，向右，向前看，爱要拐几个弯才来。

我遇见谁，会有怎样的对白，我等的人，他在多远的未来，
我听见风，来自地铁和人海，我排着队，拿着爱的号码牌。

阴天，傍晚，车窗外，未来有一个人在等待，
向左，向右，向前看，爱要拐几个弯才来。

我遇见谁，会有怎样的对白，我等的人，他在多远的未来，
我听见风，来自地铁和人海，我排着队，拿着爱的号码牌。

我往前飞，飞过一片时间海，我们也曾，在爱情里受伤害，
我看着路，梦的入口有点窄，我遇见你，是最美丽的意外。

终有一天，我的谜底会解开。。

if u all still rmb, this was the song for the movie called 'turn left turn right', by gigi leung and jin cheng wu. there's this one period of time i was super crazy bout this song. searched high and low for its piano score n even bought steph's album juz for this song only. hahs. this used to be my favourite song n it is still my favourite song now. coz i juz feel attached to it. somehow i juz don hav reason for it.

so yeah, im juz blogging for the sake of blogging coz im juz so bored now. lols.

besides, todae was a superly duperly sian-1/2 day. bought a stupid goggles (coz i forgot to bring mine) which kept getting water in. cause me to not swim in peace. plus, i've recently sprained my back n had a lil bit of prob trying to swim. watsmore, todae's a failed sun-tanned day. coz there were thick grey clouds covering the sun n all i got was nth except the sun tan oil on my body. -.-" superly bu gan yuan. hahas. shall try my luck again. i don believe i am so suay everytime. everytime go swim sure unable to get the sun most of the time.

等着瞧！ lols.

2006-03-04T01:18:00.000+08:00

- tossing and turning in bed for hours
- difficulty falling aslp
- frequently interrupted slps in the nite

i suspect im suffering from insomnia.

=/

2006-03-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

i guess im undergoing PMS now. either pre or post. sorry pp for if i barked or snapped at u for no particular reason. maybe im juz.. tink too much. maybe im not. so much so for waiting and anticipating for pp to finish their exams when all i heard was pp going out wif their other friends instead. i tot i could juz jio them out, anytime. i guess, maybe tats wat sets the barrier between us. diff schs diff environment. i don wish to join in coz, im not close wif the pp or rather, i donno them at all. it feels really weird. n the days left for me is juz a few when one can make it the other could not. its disappointing eh.

sorry ah, if i am being unreasonable or so. but i guess the 'samantha-peee-amanda' incident might juz be happening on me, now. n this wasnt juz recently but i felt this long ago juz tat i kept quiet. if u knoe wat i mean.

p/s: i might juz be too sensitive. don hav to be bothered bout this if it isnt true.

and i don need comments bout this entry. people or anybody, pls do not tag on my tagboard bout this entry. i'll bite u if u do.

2006-02-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

if ever one day u wish to find someone to argue UNREASONABLY..

tell me.

coz i've got lobang. i can intro u to my sister.

who can argue wif u on NO basis plus she will definitely change the whole situation frm its obviously HER fault to YOUR fault. PLUS, digging out past debts tat u owed her. and everything will end wif 'ITS-YOUR-FAULT-SO-SHUT-UP'.

really.. argh.

one day, i wont be surprised to find myself having high blood pressure.

juz becoz of this.

2006-02-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

for no reasons, i was being dragged in by JIAHUI to do these qns. -.-" hahas.

1. the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover
2. to mention the sex of the target.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments

this is suppose to be a game. once ya tagged. u're suppose to answer these questions in ur own blogged.

1.1 muz be above 1.7m to 1.8m. ermm, not too tall, coz im short. lols!
1.2 understanding
1.3 xi xing
1.4 able to communicate wif me
1.5 mature thinking
1.6 not younger than me nor older than me by more than 4years.
1.7 acceptable looks as in, overall a neat person.
1.8 muz love me n the one i love.

2. ermm, of coz male loh. don tink i'll ever turn crooked. im anti-crooked.

3.1 Chengyee
3.2 Peirong
3.3 Shirley
3.4 Liting
3.5 Wenhong
3.6 Rabia
3.7
3.8

errr, i really donno who else to tag le. lols, whoever wans to do, then help me fill up the last 2 places ba. heee. =) anywae, tink most pp i mentioned, wont hav time to do ba. since all are having exams now. lols. jiayou!